Having a bad day

Maisiemae,

Aaww Gee Shucks! Lol 

Xx

Hello to all and I'm sorry for those who are in shock and not started grieving...I hope you don't mind me dipping in and reading all the messages...I'd just like to share....I lost mum five years ago next month and not a day goes by that I don't miss her.....I laugh more than cry or do both...my partner always says..."are you having a moment? " ....when I was diagnosed with breast cancer two days before my birthday(December 2016) it was mum I desperately needed to talk to......without going into detail...my mum was already there...we say it was her divine intervention sending out a mammogram appointment I should never have had ( not due till July 2018 ) .....but going through this...my mum is there with me....I truly believe it because her fighting spirit is in me...yesterday I saw my first swallows of the year and think of mum instantly as she loved nature but so do.I...and my kids that's due to mum!! I hate clichés but time heals and the memories become lighter and lovely....i meet lots of people at her grave as where she is its very busy...she'd love it chatting to everyone!!! 

Just wanted those so raw to get some comfort 

Hugs and Rainbows 

Debs xxxx 

Deb.kind of you to share your words especially as you are in yr own battle. Thank goodness fof the early appointment, may your yr recovery be full and soon. Dippers and joiners and readers are always good x

At my sister's (GS) for the weekend.  Got my children and dogs with me.  It's the first time I've driven up without mum sitting next to me.  It was very strange.  I felt extremely nervous before we left - I don't normally - probably because I was going without mum. 

Still following, feel for you all, and my heart goes out to you.

Grief does go on forever, my lovely Mum died 11 years ago, these last few weeks have been super difficult, the anniversary of her death and Mothers Day. My own children did make a lovely Mothers Days for me, they are amazing.

Take care, Annteresa

Hello all, 

Feeling very sorry for myself today, it's Bob's birthday today and I have been up all night with an upset stomach, I will spare you the details!

I want today to be over.

I know my children and mil are sad today too but I don't feel well enough or have the energy to offer any comfort, totally selfish I know but I know my children understand, mil doesn't.

Big hugs to all.

Lovely Bobles, tricky days these significants. No co-incidence you have poorly system. mil will have to find her own coping mechanism today as she gets too much of your oil (as in squeakiest wheel gets the oil). Love to you and your poorly system and may the night come quickly although i hate the words killing time when we fought so hard to buy some. All the best mm

Hope you're feeling better Bobles.  Sometimes you just need to think about yourself.  It sounds like you do a lot for others - especially your MIL - so you should be able to take some time for yourself.

I've been out with my sister and eldest daughter today.  We've had a lovely time.  We went to Pizza Hut for lunch - it was something me, GS and mum always did when we had a day out shopping - and we talked about mum and laughed about some of our memories.  No sadness allowed.

I hope everyone is as ok as they can be.

Hugs to all.

X

Hi, thank you for your thoughts. Elenium and Maisiemai.

Glad you are having a lovely time with happy memories.

I've given myself a good talking to and mobilised myself! had a good clear out, my stuff, for local hospice shop and a women's refuge charity. Turn a negative into something a little more positive for those struggling in their lives.

On we go everyone.

Love and hugs xxx

Good for you Bobles.  I am making myself busy today.  Until recently my garden looked like a building site.  I actually have a lawn now and this morning I've been creating a flower bed and putting plants in.  I'm enjoying it but feeling a bit sad too as this was something that mum and I had planned to do together.  I'm going to dig up some of mum's plants and put them in my garden along with her garden statues and fairies.    Lots of things to remind me of her.  When she couldn't do her garden anymore she would sit in the chair and supervise me doing her gardening.  She did enjoy telling me what to do.  :-)

Oh well back to it...

Hugs to all.

X