Having a bad day

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Sorry but I'm having a bad day and I just need to let it out.  I woke up feeling like I've had no sleep and really down.  Mum's been bad this week - a lot of pain and, I think, sliding into depression - so I'm in overdrive on worrying about her.  My sister is with her today so I don't need to go round to see mum although I probably will drop round later.  I thought I would throw myself into cleaning the house so make myself busy and then I'd start to feel better.  My fatal mistake was asking my 18 year old daughter to help.  She had a major strop.  I tried to keep calm as I realise that she is worrying about my mum too but it was hard.  I tried to talk to her but she just got worse and worse so I gave up.  Then my husband made sarcastic comments about it all - again he is worrying and his mum is also not well - so I am still trying to keep a lid on it.  But I feel even worse now.  I'm now sitting on the sofa in my pyjama's watching old episodes of Grey's Anatomy without the will to do anything else.  I just keep crying and feel so very very sad. 

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember in reply to Bobles2

    Hello Bobles. First 24 hours good. She is a little poppit and very pretty. Other girls not interested in her... Think this is a good thing! Off for wee duties and then early night for me. Hope everyone has puppy equivalent of Mabel for some uncomplicated love x

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    FormerMember in reply to FormerMember

    Aw, how lovely Maisiemae,

    Our pets are so precious. Hope Mabel brings you great joy.

    Take care Anneteresa

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember in reply to FormerMember

    Ah, that sounds lovely, Yantibee.

    Hope you have a great time.

    Take care, Anneteresa

  • Sounds a good start Maisiemai, I've never had a puppy so wouldn't know where to start.

    Methinks you will be cheering us up with Mabel stories!

    Love to all xx

    Take a deep breath ... then on with the day.

  • Someone came to view mum's house yesterday.  They've put in an offer today.  Not sure how I feel about it.

    Elenium

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    FormerMember in reply to Elenium

    Elenium. It must be difficult. We have that yet to come.  Sending off the oaths for probate tomorrow.  After that's complete will transfer property to Dad's name.

    I guess the people who buy your Mum's place will likely love it too.


    Glum day here Dad crying as we watched programme on Italy. 


    Night all.


    Jx

  • Hello Elenium,

    I know it's so hard but memories will always stay with you. It was a happy home I know and likely the buyers can sense that.

    You need to put your sensible head on which I know you will, but I do know the sadness that is also part of selling mum's house.

    love to all xxx

    Take a deep breath ... then on with the day.

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember in reply to Elenium

    Its a tricky one. Made worse by the fact you see mums house daily. my mums house, i cant feel her in there any more and she would say its just bricks, but i can smell her smell and that comforts me. Mum smelt of yellow morrisons own fabric conditioner and nappy bags! good luck today my dear friend xxx

  • I don't feel mum in her house anymore.  I think that's why I find it so difficult to go there.  I know we've got to sell it but even if I could afford to keep it I'm not sure I would.  The route that I walk the dogs is near mum's house and there's a bit of grass on the corner that the dogs always have to wee on so I always stand there and look over at her house.  Last night when I got home I realised that I didn't look.  That's the first time.  I know I will get used to it being someone else's home, as you say Maisemae, it's just bricks. I can always take the dogs on a different route and drive round the other way but I will get past it.

    I got the job by the way.  :-)

    Elenium

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    FormerMember in reply to Elenium

    Congrats Elenium! Hoorah as I think thats what you want. BTW its mum who said its only bricks and mortar, not me, but im holding onto her words and sayings more and more in a way to keep her memory alive. Mums been dead (rarely use that word) 3 months but I swear the last time I saw her was 5 years ago. I would do almost anything for one more day of her well. I wasnt right during her illness. I was so desparate. Elenium, do whatever feels right. Ps i dont want to meet the people buying mums. Im sure they are fine but I sort of dont like them, what if they cut down mums fruit trees we bought her and which produce beautiful pears, cherries and damsons every year and we would harvest together in her little back garden. Oh life is so hard sometimes. Much love x