Having a bad day

Oh sue that would be brilliant. I might smother you with a hug although suspect shy for 2 seconds! Will u stay in london? A holiday might be on the cards then - just what the dr ordered. Alan being with you again good x

I'll just come down for the day as my friend who sees to the cats for me can only do Thursday & Friday. 

I know what you mean about the hugs. A friend once told me I should be in the AA Guide to Best Hugs of Britain!! Lol

Sue xx

Jenny. Its a lovely act you have done. Clever mum. And, cake like an and at the start of a sentence are meant to be no no's is a yes from me x

Just had convo with natwest youth (who was holding Mums death certificate) about her not currently being able to sign forms on joint account. ...made me laugh. ..he nearly smiled...

I feel so anxious today & shaky. Went out to lunch with Alans friend Christine. She's lovely but I found it hard going. Am home now with headache & gurgly tummy. Have just had some Deflatine, hope the gurgles stop soon. Feeling like I want to cry but it won't come.

Sue xx

How you doing now Sue?

The needing to cry and it not coming out feels like pressure to me. I don't understand it (for me I mean). Guess there's no explanation it just is that way for some of us.  It comes some other time or way. Maybe your stomach gurgles instead. .unless lunch was dodgy?

Am glad not to be in central London today where I used to work.

Jx

Hope you're feeling a bit better now Sue.

I work just up the road from Westminster.  Could hear all the sirens but couldn't see anything, which I'm grateful for.  I went to ring mum to tell her I was OK then realised.  

I think you're right Jenny. It's anxiety making me gurgly. It's settling down now. I haven't had the tv on today. My mate Liz called and told me about Westminster. I'll catch the news in a bit. 

Hope all ok and those around you.

My son works in central London, texted him to ask if he was ok and he said of course, why? Elenium I need some of your let mum know I'm okay tips for my son, automatic for you I know, naturally.

Hugs and love to all.

I'm feeling very angry today.  I went out last night and wish I hadn't.  Although people are sympathetic they don't really get it.  It was almost like they thought because I was out I was OK and everything was back to normal.  It's never going to be ok. 

My eldest sister is trying to do a big sister thing for my brothers.  I think she thinks because she's the eldest she has to hold us all together now.  Too little too late.  I love her but she's not ever really been there for us all emotionally.  She got married young and her whole life has revolved  around her husband and kids and the rest of us weren't really a part of it.  She came to visit mum every week but I always felt like she was a family friend rather than my sister.  (I was 8 when she got married) We're closer now we're older but I'm never going to have the relationship I have with my other sister with her (if that makes sense).

I've just got this anger bubbling up inside me at the moment and I just want to tell everyone to F off...