Feeling sad and scared

Hi LesleyH. 

I am sorry you are feeling this way. It’s so hard to feel normal again after going through cancer treatment. I think a delayed reaction is quite common. I have metastatic cancer and one of the most emotionally difficult times for me was when I first reached remission. The fear of recurrence, the horrors of what had endured playing constantly through my mind, the expectation of everyone that I should be back to normal. The arrival of new life into your family is also in an odd way a reminder of the passing of time for you. It would be easy to trot out the usual platitudes of going out, getting exercise, doing things you enjoy. Maybe you would benefit from some counselling or similar? Our help pages have some information about moving on after treatment and also links to local services. If there is a MacMillan centre or a Maggie’s at your hospital you might find support there. I found a mindfulness course was really helpful. 
www.macmillan.org.uk/.../after-treatment

Coddfish, thank you for your response which has helped me understand a bit more about my feelings and thanks for the counselling option which I might take up. Sending hope and healing thoughts to everyone with or who has had cancer.

Just to let you know I found myself stuck in my thoughts so I have accepted some of the services offered locally which I have found helpful. I'm quite private and it was a bit nerve wracking but I'm glad I've given it a go. There are things out there that help so I do hope you find something that's a good fit for you. Thinking of you. 

Thank you, I'll have a look what's available nearby. Hope you continue to stay positive and healthy