After 7 seriously gruelling sessions of Chemo to shrink my bowel cancer followed by major surgery, I was told that the cancer had been removed and my bloods showed clear. I was to undertake 5 more chemo treatments . After the first one I was hit by a tsunami both emotionally and physically. I also got extreme Neurapathy in my feet and was unable to walk for a few days and although it has improved slightly it shows no signs of going away. I decided that i truly could not do any more Chemo . Having fought for a year and not relented in my positivity all of a sudden i was a heap on the floor.
although the oncology dept were fine with my decision I now feel as though they have pushed me out to sea on a raft with no support . Suddenly when I am actually feeling mentally worse than ever it feels like there is no one to talk to. I cannot keep moaning to my family and friends, who have been so amazing, as most think that because I have been given such a good diagnosis I should be upbeat and getting on with it. getting a doctors appointment these days is almost impossible.
I'm sure im not alone in this but shouldn't this be something taken into account when one is signed off from oncology?
