It was a conversation that needed to be had. We have to abandon the renovation of out old farmhouse and conserve the cash to cover the possibility that I will die from cancer. My wife will need the money for her old age. Desperately emotional and leaving me stuffed.
it’s a contingency we must plan for.
I feel my world falling apart - all the things I loved and loved doing almost seem like a thing of the past. A numbing funk has taken their place.
leo
Hi Candysmum
What a lovely post! I really enjoyed reading your story, and what you’ve achieved. Absolutely wonderful.
I’ve chosen since my diagnosis to focus on things I want to achieve-starting with booking a long haul holiday on the very day I received a “Ned” result after my first line treatment was complete. I went on that trip exactly a year to the date of being diagnosed.
I am “lucky” in the sense that I haven’t had an incurable diagnosis, but life hasn’t been without its issues in the last 4 years-becoming disabled, having more surgery for something non cancer related and sundry other problems. Currently waiting a referral for something else-it never ends! But I haven’t changed my view that life is to live and we deserve to enjoy it. I refuse to “save” for a future I may never experience. I prefer to experience it now.
No-one knows how long we have, and I told my consultant a number of years ago that she was never to tell me. I just want to live my life doing things I am able to, and not worrying about a future I can’t predict.
I hope you are thoroughly enjoying your property and your life in it, and am delighted to see that you are stable.
Sarah xx
