I wake up feeling scared most days. Last week was amazing and then it wasnt.i dont even know what happened. Others have it so much worse then me and I'm crying. I have no one but my 5 kids. No family here what so ever. I feel so scared and alone and I dont know what to do.i talk till I'm blue in the face I call gp like everyone says they give me pills I feel great for a weekish then back to feeling lost and alone. I'd love to have a partner even if just someone to hang with or talk to or just be in house..
Hi Frazzled,
Not got much in me at the moment but I wanted to respond as I think I get what you are saying, this is a place where talking freely is ok, I don't think Granny59 was trying to suggest you shouldn't do that.
Are you a member of The Room, I sometimes use that forum to thought dump.
Don't silence yourself as that won't help.
I hope you find some peace tonight.
I get that, I find my thoughts spin out of control at times and there is a danger of drowning and thought dumping can help. I live alone (well I have a foster child who is only 5, so she takes a lot of emotional energy as she has her own traumas), but I can identify with the deafening silence of the alone time.
I'm always alone and I have 5 kids and not a one of them will hang out with me. I hate winter especially here in UK it's just horrible and it effects my mood so much. I hate getting up in the morning just to sit at home all day long. I feel like I'm doing something wrong. I'm trying to rehome my dog at the minute cause my 2 kids at home dont have time to help with her and I dont feel well enough to walk her out in this cold cause if I we get sick they cant give us our treatment. I feel like I'm a moaner.i dont want to be. But i dont want to be alone all the time. It gives me to much time to think. Thank u so much for listening this morning.. I'm just scared all the time. I've talked to my GP upped my antidepressants but not working real good. I dont know what else to do. I just want to not be alone and scared all the time
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