Hi,
Sat bawling silently as my husband sleeps. We’ve been on a long cancer journey over the last five years and he’s only 45. He’s been feeling low the last few weeks, completely understandably.
Tonight he said something that triggered a tsunami of emotions as I allowed myself to think about just how cruel life has been.
Cancer has been so cruel, first it frightened us, surgery changed his body and left him with a stoma which he took in his stride. But it wasn’t done. To try and save him, he got another bag and lost the use of his leg. And still it wasn’t done, despite all the surgery, all the treatment it’s spread and no longer curable.
it’s stolen the life we should have had before it steals his.
We have two young children who will never remember how things were before this.
I’m scared, I’m angry, I’m jealous of other people, and I’m so so sad.
it’s a bad day, I know we all have them and should embrace them but don’t know what to do with myself.
Hi Morganna17
I'm so sorry to hear that your husband has cancer. What you are feeling is perfectly understandable both of you have been through so much. If you feel up to it why not ring the Macmillan helpline on 0808 808 00 00 to talk to someone about how you are feeling.
I notice that you are also a member of the Supporting someone with incurable cancer forum, if you feel up to it why not put how you are feeling into that forum to get support from other people whose loved ones have an incurable diagnosis. There is also the family and friends forum that you can join to get support from other family members whose loved ones have cancer. Here's the link to that forum: Family and friends forum .
Best wishes to you and your family.
Daisy53
