Sometimes I feel really angry

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I was diagnosed with melanoma and I've stayed out of the sun most of my life because I have very pale skin. I've barely ever even got sunburnt.

Meanwhile most people get sunburned loads and they don't get cancer. I obviously don't wish it on anyone but sometimes it makes me so angry and jealous. 

Some people even bake themselves in the sun for hours and I know I could never do that. I feel in fear of the sun and I hate that I sometimes resent those who don't fear it 

  • It’s one of these mysteries when it comes to sun exposure. Many get off with it but many don’t…… But in reality our main concern is our own well-being and we concentrate on doing the best to live our lives within the challenges of a cancer diagnosis.

    I have lived with and been treated for a rare Skin Non Hodgkin’s Lymphoma for over 23 years  - it’s not skin cancer but an incurable blood cancer that grows ‘on’ the skin so at one point I was 70% covered with tumours.

    Over my first 14 years I was treated with UVA and UVB treatments 2-3 retimes a week for 20 weeks every year. So I had over 400 sessions of light treatments but I also did go on to have many other full on treatments (hit my community name to see my story).

    I am very high up the ‘at risk’ list for developing other cancers in clouding skin cancer due to the treatments I have had…….. so at the moment my aim is to live life to the full and I certainly don’t let the actions of others distract me from doing this.

    I don’t have any real feelings about folks baking themselves in the sun apart from some pity towards them - but it is their life to live and deal with whatever comes along.

    My advise is not to rob yourself of life, aim to live life to the full as best and as safe as you can.

    Mike (Thehighlander)

    It always seems impossible until its done - Nelson Mandela

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  • Hi, gardening is my happy place too hence my moniker.  I have a great alottment nearby within walking distance and it's my refuge.  Covered in factor 50 and clothes covering all of me except my face but hat worn too is how I spend my days.  I hear what you're saying but, like Highlander, just feel sorry for them "for they know not what they do"

    Not all melanomas are due to the sun and certainly no one deserves to get any form of cancer at all.  I feel it's wasted time thinking of others and their journeys, I've enough on my plate with my melanoma and my daughter.  If I can spread the word to others re being more careful in the sun I will.

    It is natural to feel angry and jealous towards others without cancer but it eats up all your energy and you need that to live your life well hon.  Enjoy the garden but just cover up well and use high factor sun cream, avoid the 11am to 3pm most dangerous time.  Take care x