I’m recovering from a hysterectomy and radiotherapy and I’m diabetic, I saw the diabetic ophthalmologist today for a check up and he saw a lump in my eye that he thinks could be cancer, I’ve to wait for an appointment at a specialist hospital in Glasgow for tests. I just feel like giving up, I’ve had enough, I’ve tried to be strong, but this is just too much.
I have been on my incurable blood cancer journey for coming up to 23 years now and can totally understand the times where the strength and emotional well runs dry.
The worst time was my two one month stays in The Beatson in Glasgow having my two Stem Cell Transplants resulting in me landing up in CCU a few times, leaving hospital in a wheelchair and learning to walk and even although I am over 6 years out from treatment I continue to deal with my treatment ‘left overs’ including a heart attack a few weeks back…… but I have to say my drive to ‘live’ still far outweighs the stuff that could pull me down.
I wish you all the very best and the physical and mental strength to push through.
