I haven’t posted on anything like this before and it’s been a bit of a battle knowing where to turn and feeling I have nowhere to turn to. I find it hard as I’m not the one battling with this horrible disease, but my loved ones. Reading everyone else’s story’s, knowing I’m not alone, makes me think getting my thoughts out might just help a little.
I’ve had a really hard 6 years and there seems to be no light at the end of the tunnel. My Dad was diagnosed with a rare brain tumour in 2015, he was only 50. I helped him for years, with his chemo, radiotherapy, 2 operations and recovery from a stroke he had in surgery. He passed away last May. I looked after him for a long time when he could no longer walk or talk and he passed in mine and my mums arms. I wouldn’t do it any differently, but it was and still is hard!
It will be a year since he passed in 2 weeks. I have felt an obligation to hold everyone else together in their grief over this year that I’m just coming to terms with it myself. Just starting to process it all, struggling in my own head a lot at the moment, feeling down, having memories and some minor anxiety attacks at times
Now, today I have just found out that my Husbands Nan has cancer in her bones, lung and liver.
I don’t even know how to process this, where to start and question how do things keep worsening the heartache?
How can I be the Wife I need to be and be there for my Husband when i am still in pieces myself?
Just feeling very helpless at the moment and don’t feel I can talk to family/ worsen their own pain. Just needed to get the stress out of my head. Wish life would give us a break!
