Hi there,
So I found out the other day that my young cousin died and while searching for funeral details, I came across another notice for our uncle (they died within 3 days of each other) After more research, I found out that my uncle was diagnosed with lung cancer 6 months ago. If you wonder why I refer to them in a uncaring way, we were estranged. That is now the 3rd member of that side that has died from lung cancer. Grandmother, aunt and uncle. All that side is gone (including my father, who died from emphysema/pneumonia)
In 2000 I was diagnosed with pre-cancerous cells on the neck of my cervix. 14 years later, stage 3 breast cancer. On my mothers side, there is a long history with kidney cancer so to hear about the recent death has thrown me into turmoil. Given my history and a product of two families where cancer is rampant, I have become paranoid that my cancer will come back.
My mums family saw a geneticist and he confirmed that there is a faulty cancer gene on that side. My relationship with my doctors surgery has broken down as they failed to diagnose my BC despite blood tests amongst other things and I don't trust them. So I feel I cannot speak about this to any of them. My anxiety levels are through the roof and even started saving for my funeral.
I am struggling and don't know where to turn.
Hi, not surprised you are feeling overwhelmed. That is an awful lot to process. Do you have any contact with your cancer team? They may be able to offer someone for you to talk to. I have little panic attacks when I get any ache or pain. The only way I am coping is by having regular sessions with a therapist.
there may be a new doctor at your surgery who you could develop a relationship with?
Hi Nina...thank you for replying. I haven't had any contact with my cancer team since 2015. My breast cancer nurse said she would refer me to a psychologist but haven't heard anything in 6 years! It is impossible to get an appt with any of my doctors (only have 3 women) and they just keep an eye on the clock, rather than get to the root of what is going on with me. One doctor wanted me to have counselling but the one they use have an interview process first and if they deem you suitable, you go on a waiting list.
Any chance of changing the surgery you are with? Probably difficult at the moment. Have you heard of talking therapies? It may be what your doctors have talked about. I’ve heard good things though and it would at least be a starting point. A few people I know have used talking therapy and said they have been helpful. Initially it is a six week set up but that can be extended I understand, and I think recommendations can be made.
If there are any Macmillan or Maggie centres anywhere near you they may be able to help too. I am fortunate in that there is a cancer centre very close by. I was able to talk with them when I was going for appointments. It’s all different now of course and will be telephone consultation but better than nothing. X
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