My mum has lung cancer that was treated with Pembro, she is off treatment now but her cancer is stable. Unfortunately, she has other health problems and the burden of her care has now got too much for me. I've been looking after her for two years now on my own, I have bad anxiety and depression and only manage to work a part time cleaning job (I used to be a research scientist). I feel broken and I know I can't do this anymore but the guilt of this is just awful.
My mum has dementia like symptoms and she has started leaving the house and wandering around outside in the middle of the night. I don't and can't live with her (she has a one bed so I have to sleep on sofa) but I go to her house for 4 hours per day to help. Her recent problems prompted me to start the process of having her assessed for care. She's devastated and blames me for taking her life away from her. It's heart breaking to see her like this and I hate myself for doing this. It's so hard :(
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