Hi all
My mum has recently been diagnosed with cancer, lung cancer, bone cancer, and she has two lesions on her brain. she had three seizures the other week as her pain level has got too high and now she's not the same person she was.. I have never dealt with any of this in my life I'm 49 years old my mum is 75. I am the closest sibling to my mum and I'm struggling with all this I don't know which ways to turn my brain is not functioning properly my mum is becoming very forgetful very confused and it's all happened/happening so quickly in the last month. I have issues myself with mental health and painkiller dependency I just don't know how to deal with this I try to set things straight in my mind and they go jumbled up again I'm trying so hard my stress levels are that high it's giving me migraines I really don't know what to do I just feel like a spare part and just want to curl up into a ball and hope it all goes away but its not going to I struggle to talk to people about it as it's just mumbled up in my mind.
I don't know if it is the lesions causing this or if it's the new medication for the cancer or the seizure medication that is doing this to my mum. Mum has a new thing now of ringing me at stupid hours of the day example 2ainin the morning and I got a little bit upset with it and had to go with my mum and now I feel bad but I dont want to feel like this I know it's not her fault as it's everything that is going on to her.
Obviously this is not all of my story I don't even know how to write it all any advice would be fantastic
