Since my partner was diagnosed with Glioblastoma in May this year my life has been turned upside down. He’s had surgery and has gone through a 15 day course of chemotherapy and radiotherapy and is doing amazingly well. We go to see the consultant in September and he will then start a stronger dose of chemotherapy. I was off work from May and have just gone back in the last 2 weeks. My problem, such as it is, is that I have zero enthusiasm for my job anymore. I met my lovely partner just before I turned 50 and I will have had 20 wonderful years with him when I turn 70 in October. I carried on working after reaching state retirement age as I really enjoyed my job and have great colleagues. I lead a small life, but I like it, I don’t have many friends, just mostly people though work. I just don’t want to go to work anymore. I’m going to carry on until the end of the year. My partner thinks I’ll be bored, and I have to say that as we have had a wonderful summer here in the UK, it does make a difference. I struggled emotionally when I went back to work, constantly breaking down and I have had terrible stomach issues this last week. I’m assuming they’re brought on by stress- however my doctor suggested Imodium! I feel ‘safer’ at home for some reason and I’ve always been a home bird. I can’t carry on working forever, Work have been great but I’ve had enough. It helps that as I’m receiving the state pension, finances won’t be a problem. I never thought I’d be typing these words, I know that in the future I’ll probably be alone but I’ve been alone before and managed.
Hi Malengwa. Thank you for your reply, I’m really sorry to hear that your husband has passed and I hope you’re coping as well as you can in the circumstances. I think that my partner’s diagnosis has made me reassess the things that are important in life. Without going into detail, my job’s not what it used to be, and many times I’ve found myself asking how much longer I can carry on. I think this situation has given me the shove I need. Thanks again for replying, look after yourself. 
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That sentiment is so true regarding buying time. Half of the problem is that my partner doesn’t want me to resign, at least not until he’s finished his next dose of chemotherapy. That will bring us to the end of the year. I’ve got holiday time booked off work in September, I’m due to have a tear duct drainage operation in October and again more holiday booked in November. We were due to go away in September and November hence the holiday time being booked, however, fate decided otherwise and I’m more than happy to stay at home. These absences are the only reason I feel that I can continue working. I think I’ve had a massive wake up call. Thanks for your reply 
. I hope all is well with you.
