Since my partner was diagnosed with Glioblastoma in May this year my life has been turned upside down. He’s had surgery and has gone through a 15 day course of chemotherapy and radiotherapy and is doing amazingly well. We go to see the consultant in September and he will then start a stronger dose of chemotherapy. I was off work from May and have just gone back in the last 2 weeks. My problem, such as it is, is that I have zero enthusiasm for my job anymore. I met my lovely partner just before I turned 50 and I will have had 20 wonderful years with him when I turn 70 in October. I carried on working after reaching state retirement age as I really enjoyed my job and have great colleagues. I lead a small life, but I like it, I don’t have many friends, just mostly people though work. I just don’t want to go to work anymore. I’m going to carry on until the end of the year. My partner thinks I’ll be bored, and I have to say that as we have had a wonderful summer here in the UK, it does make a difference. I struggled emotionally when I went back to work, constantly breaking down and I have had terrible stomach issues this last week. I’m assuming they’re brought on by stress- however my doctor suggested Imodium! I feel ‘safer’ at home for some reason and I’ve always been a home bird. I can’t carry on working forever, Work have been great but I’ve had enough. It helps that as I’m receiving the state pension, finances won’t be a problem. I never thought I’d be typing these words, I know that in the future I’ll probably be alone but I’ve been alone before and managed.
