Hi I am new here and looking for some support - I’m feeling quite alone at the moment. Three years ago my husband was diagnosed with stage 4 prostate cancer. He’s been through treatment and is currently stable with meds but I’m noticing such a change in him. Due to his medication, his emotions are all over the place, he’s either manically happy or really really low. He rages all of the time, most often at me, behind closed doors and then shows up to the rest of the world that he’s doing fine. I feel like I’m walking on eggshells all of the time, which is really exhausting and I’m second guessing everything I do. I’ve tried talking to him about it but he just can’t see it. It’s really getting me down. I love my husband deeply and of course can’t comprehend what he’s dealing by with on a daily basis, or the impact of the medication. Most of the time I can let it wash over me but it’s got to the point where my kids are seeing his behaviour towards me and it’s upsetting them. I feel really caught in the middle. I’m struggling to talk about this with friends as I feel disloyal and they don’t see that behaviour in him. Has anyone else as a partner / carer had experience of hormone induced rages and how have they managed?
