My mum was diagnosed with stage 4 breast cancer at the start of this year. We also found out it had spread to multiple places and she had over 50 tumours in her brain. I genuinely thought she was going to die. She deteriorated so quickly within a week. She stopped being independent, she stopped walking cos of how out of breath she got. She lost a total of 5 stone since finding out. She was in hospital for about 2 months straight. I would go up there every day, I would do whatever she needed me to do because that is my mum and I wanted to take care of her. Especially because we didn't know what the outcome was. She's been back home since the end of May but since she's been home I've just been so irritated with her. She has managed to get back on her feet and walk around, she can walk up the stairs and it's nowhere near as bad as it was before. But she still relies on me to do absolutely everything. I have a 9 month old baby and he's obviously my priority but I feel like in her mind she should be my main priority. I've had to move in with her to become her full time carer, and I've never received a thankyou from her and neither has my partner and we do literally everything for her. The other week I saw that she was slagging me off to her friends and it just infuriated me. I don't understand why I now feel this way.
On the other hand, I also get really emotional thinking about her and when I look at her I find it hard to remember the woman she was before she got cancer. So my feelings flip from being so annoyed with her, to feeling so emotional about her illness and it is just really hard to navigate.
Does anyone else feel like this?
