Husband has been told there’s no more treatment, that was about 2 months ago. His balance has now gone, nothing makes sense all chat is mixed with conversation a people around him are having or a tv programme that’s on and then talks as if he’s experience this event with people from his past. Constantly thinking he has to go to work or travel. Gets confused with where he is and talks about random people and reall random things sometimes.
past couple of days there been a couple of moments I’ve felt he doesn’t want me around, I’m getting frustrated and of course he is. I’m shattered and starting to feel resentful sometimes, then the guilt takes over.
Tonight ( it is now 5am) I’ve had no sleep, I was feeling frustrated sexually. Watched one of our private videos to get a release, but I watched it nd started crying and can’t stop. Seeing how he used to be with me and look at me etc has broken me as I know I’m not going to have that again with him. I’m getting to a point where I no longer know how to cope or deal with any of this, it’s getting too much. I want this to end and for him to just go back to him and being the love of my life and the sweet kind man that he is.
