I had to pop into my GP surgery today. As I queued at reception I was overcome with sadness at the memory that the last time I was there was when I took my husband in January before he was bed-bound. It seems so long ago.
I felt so sad. I’ve got all this grief and nowhere to send it because he’s still here, but not really here, if you know what I mean.
Hi there, I’m going through something potentially similar. I moved flat 8 months ago now and ever since we moved my fiancé hasn’t been well. I miss our old lives in our old flat sometimes, cos it seemed simpler (renting, not as many stresses with work, nowhere near as many health issues).
You may feel the same way as me right now that you don’t have permission to complain or feel sad.. but you do! It’s healthy to lean into the sadness, feel the feelings, write them down like you have done or share with friends/family. I’m still navigating how honest I should be with my fiancé about my feelings, tbc..
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