I'm totally new here. My younger sister who is 48 has just been told she has a large mass on her chest and highly suspected by her consultant after a CT scan thats it's cancer. She has her biopsy on Friday, a pet scan, brain mri and wchocardiogram booked as the mass which is across both sides is very close to her heart. I am totally broken. She is fit and healthy, never smoked, an occasional wine drinker and looks after her health so well. I feel lonely in my thoughts and pathetic that I just can't stop crying. I'm waking all through the nights just sobbing at the thought that she might die because it really doesn't look or feel very positive right now. I'm trying to be positive and so strong for her but I feel like I am failing before her journey even starts. It's difficult to talk to my elderly parents are they too are unwell and just not coping with the news. I have a very supportive partner but not many friends due to my own health issues and isolation. The thought of losing her is too much to bear. I always anticipated that I would be the one to die first. I just don't know what to do. Any advice would be very welcomed because I can't do the best for her If I'm such an emotional wreck...
