What to expect . Husband stage 4 colorectal, mestases liver and lung currently stable but bone cancer worsening

Hard as it is focusing on each day is best and with each day you will care and help him get through it.  My husband has terminal lung cancer and it has spread to his brain and liver.  I have watched him slowly slip away.  He is now on end of life care at home where he wants to be.  we have hospice at home here every day and they are great. We have always tried to focus on one day at a time trying to make memories.  Now we sit often in silence as he's too tired but I chat about the things we have done and places we visited.  I thought it would be hard to care for him at home ,and my grown up children won't be able to cope, but each day we have done it together and when we see him comfortable and peaceful it gives us some peace.  On my own I want to just scream and cry and I do.  

Thank you Moo, so much for your reply, it has helped a lot to hear how you have hospice at home and how you have developed ( both of you) with the illness…thank you for taking the time..

The hardest thing about this horrible thing is to  ask for help . Until I came on here I was feeling  useless and didn't know if I could cope, then reading the posts and seeing so many in my  situation and feeling how I feel  it helped. I was so scared that if I  told people how I felt and I  was  scared of what was coming they would say he would have to go into a home or hospital, that's not what we want . Instead I have been offered help and support to keep him at home and to cope .