Another day of 4 walls....wondering what will happen next. He could walk to a shop last Weds. Now says legs feel heavy & knee joints hurt. So another day of sitting with a tv on, no cooking as no food wanted. As lost nearly 2 stone 4 months.
Oncologist says side effects as had a lot of treatment & body needs to get over it. Oncologist not aware of heavy legs & not going out now.
I've had enough of trying & hes had enough his words yesterday " cant go out for drink ( ie one beer as it doesnt seem to agree with him now), cant eat no appetite, cant go put for a walk, whats the point...no future" his words to me yesterday.
My real worry with the lack of walking, is he had a stroke in 2018, so to sit for long periods isnt good, as you get foot drop & legs get weak. You have to keep moving after stroke. It took 2 years to get him mobile after the stroke, to go from.paralysis to walking with a srick. Going overseas alone, travelling in the UK alone, simply getting on a bus to the shops alone, all the hard work physio, for what! For cancer to come along in 2025 & take it all away!
In 2 months of having 4 different types of cancer treatments, hes gone from walking about normal, eating, having a beer on a weekend, planning his next trip away, to sitting in 24/7 & attempting to walk along the corrider to our flat using his stick.
I cant do it anymore, not got the strength, the health, the energy. Just about hit rock bottom & no way up...
