My dear partner has Lynch syndrome driven throat cancer and has been battling hard for 17 years, we met 15 years ago when I had my own cancer diagnosis and together we beat seemed the odds, but now it’s taking over and he’s quickly shutting down.
For weeks I’ve been struggling to eat because I feel so bad eating knowing he can’t eat properly, I have reserves so it’s not a big deal but I struggle so much with the guilt of being able to sit in the sun when he’s bed bound or take a sip of a drink without choking when he is struggling and hurting so fricking much.
He’s the only reason I’m here, he’s actually saved my life a few times and all I keep thinking is how I don’t wanna live without him.
I just don’t know how to lessen the guilt, I can’t let him see me struggling now.
