Struggling, need to rant - husband given up, always arguing

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This feels very selfish writing this but I need to rant.

My husband has grade 4 Glioblastoma and he tells me he has given up. All we seem to do is argue at the minute and I’m so scared that I’m only going to remember these awful times, he even told me last night that he doesn’t care about my feelings! I do not believe this at all but it hurts to hear him say it.

Each time a scan is done he gets an anxiety which I totally get. We are seeing the specialist today for results and I am terrified. 
I am taking early retirement at the end of March to hopefully make positive memories but I am terrified we will not have this time.

  • Dear AlyG

    Hope the appointment went ok...

    Totally get what you are saying - my husband can be vile at times, to the extent that I wonder if he actually is rethinking his whole life choices (and doesn't love me but needs me) or trying to push me away so that I don't see him slowly disappearing.

    You won't remember just the arguments because relationships are so much more than that, but it is important that you remain kind to yourself. We all need to rant, thoughts are not actions and given what we are going through, just getting up in the morning is sometimes an achievement in itself.