I am in the midst of supporting my Mum and really not a place I want to be, but I am doing my best. Yes, I could do more, but I could also do less. The past few weeks I have not been kind to myself over all of this. But, now that we are nearing the end, I am grateful of the time I have with her. The small chats we have between sleeps and the tiny things I can do to help her. As of yesterday, I have lots of support in place. Whilst I would of course welcome more support, I feel relatively calm compared to recent days. Please remember how amazing you all are. None of us asked to be in ‘this gang’ but we find ourselves here and can only do our best. Much love x
What a lovely post, orange lily. Youre so right ... none of us chose to be here and we're all doing our best and taking it one day at a time.
You sound to be doing a wondeful job with your mum and I'm sure it's bringing her great comfort. Sending love and strength. 
️
Hi Orange Lily,
What a beautiful post and what a fantastic outlook you have.
Once we (my late wife and I) accepted the utter finality of it all, we allowed ourselves the little luxury of becoming calm. It was a gift and a godsend in the final days and hours and it allowed Margaret to go out on her own terms - smiling and beautiful as always.
I look back of my 7 1/2 years of caring with great pride. I did my very best. Most of the time it was enough, sometimes it fell short of the mark. It taught me to be stronger, more confident, more loving.
I truly believe, in some odd way, caring made me a better person and I use what I learnt in those years every day.
Embrace the calm, love your mum and look forward to tomorrow.
Peace.
Ewen 
