I wonder how others who are working and caring manage. My husband has stage 4 prostate cancer which has metastasised. He’s recently undergone 8 months of chemo during which I was able to work from home 3 days a week. His treatment has finished and he’s hoping to resume work. He may need more treatment at some point so it’s open ended at the moment. His return to work will be very slow and gradual and to be honest I am worried for him and want to be at home when he gets home and not coming in later from the office. My line manager has been supportive but I know they want to have me back in more often so the arrangement will be reviewed. I am hoping to get an admin job where I can just work from home. I find office life very stressful and no matter how nice your colleagues are, people have absolutely NO clue what it’s like living with this illness and seeing your loved one go through it. It is nothing short of brutal and just consumes your life. Everything you do is overshadowed by this illness.
It’s funny because one of my colleagues was being nice and asking me about my husband and saying it’s so hard isn’t it? I found it hard to answer that because words just don’t do it justice. Words and language label things but living with cancer is all consuming. It permeates everything. Saying it’s hard doesn’t even touch how I feel. I am sure it’s not just me who feels this.
Just having a rant and a vent. I do attend counselling which is helpful and I am grateful for it. Thank you for reading and I appreciate this forum as it does make you realise others do actually understand.
