Depression

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My husband was diagnosed with AML in January .Ive been so strong but recently I’ve  become a complete wreck .I don’t want to leave his side .I have nothing to look forward to .Its just a never ending round of hospital visits ,platelets and transfusions.He is amazing and positive and I’m just ruining everything .I seriously wonder if I’m doing any good whatsoever.Weve sorted out wills ,finances ,power of attorney and all that sort of thing .I dread the thought of going into darker nights .Feel so alone .

  • Hi Joepil welcome to the  forum. I note that you have entitled your post "Depression" and Im wondering if this is potentially what s going on for you right now and little wonder. However, to put yourself at the front of this you need to make an appointment to see your GP and discuss how you are feeling with them. It is not unheard of in any Carers to develop a depression  and they will be able to offer support and help for you if it turns out that is what it is.

    Please do  not feel alone and please be assured that you are never alone, not while we are all here for you as you need us to be.  

    Sending some huge big hugs your way for now. xx

    gail

     
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  • Hi there, it is so difficult when you are caring for someone. I expect you are exhausted mentally and physically. You are giving everything to the person you love, and don’t have a chance to have any quality of life at all for yourself. I get the loneliness. I think the role of carer is not supported or respected enough. You are an amazing person to be helping your husband this way. Is there anyone else that could cover for a while, and give you a break ? Kind regards.

  • He’s doing not bad with platelets twice a week and full blood count every 2 weeks .He'stold me he’ll let me know if he feels worse .Im going to go to a support group on Friday and now have a couple of days out with friends .His friend will check in on him .

    Thank you so much for your kind words .We are all amazing even if it is really difficult 

  • Hi there, that sounds like a plan. I made myself go out on Sunday to an Art Gallery with a friend. It did me the world of good. The support group sounds a good idea, I haven’t got one yet. Kind regards.