Hi Everyone,
I have been on here for a few months but this is my first post.
Background - my wonderful husband was diagnosed with metastatic (presumed) bowel cancer in April. He was admitted to hospital with abdo pain and ascites in October last year but it took over 6 months to get a diagnosis. The Oncologist said he had months, rather than years left. He started palliative chemo shortly after. It has ravaged his body. He has now lost over 25 kgs and suffered almost every side effect there is. The mucositis - sore mouth - is one of the worst. He can't eat much because of it. He gets angry, tearful and sad which is so unlike him.
We get his staging scan result on the 19th - a month after it was done. I imagine it will show things have improved as he no longer has ascites or pleural effusion and his CEA has come down. We both feel he can't continue with the chemo and immunotherapy as his quality of life is so poor. This will be a tough decision because if its helping to reduce tumours - he has 7 in total - we are basically ending his life earlier if he stops treatment.
I feel like I'm drowning in grief. It's torture. I'm avoiding seeing people as I'm so tearful. I am having counselling at a cancer charity which is helpful to offload. I'm thinking of trying Maggies, there's one about 40 mins away. I feel I need people in my life who understand and we can help each other. I suppose that's what I'm hoping for by doing this post.
Love to everyone going through this horrible disease, whether suffering from it or caring for someone who is.
Julie 
