First post and reaching out for anyone who might be experiencing similar, or who has come out the other side.
From the beginning I have to say that I don’t have a good relationship with my husband. But still together after 40 years. He had a stroke in April and during the hospital stay advanced, inoperable bowel cancer was found.
He has a bag now (which is a whole other story) and has recovered well from the stroke.
Folfox chemo which didn’t work - Mets in lungs grew aggressively, tumour in colon and lymph slowly. So no he is on Folfiri. They can’t use a targeted therapy because of the stroke risk.
Oncologist said (when pushed) 6 -10 months. Most recent PET scan and oncologist meeting was Friday 13th. He is ‘stable’ in that nothing has grown alarmingly, so the chemo continues until December. I don’t know if that means the 6 -10 months is extended or not?
My husband accepts that he’s dying, but really dislikes me and the whole world! I am the focus of his hatred as I am available 24/7. He is almost impossible to live with. I deal with it day to day but I actually want it to end. And I feel awful writing it down and putting it out there.
So, I’m not sure what the point of joining this forum is, other than to find out that I’m either a monster or I’m not alone.
