Feeling so confused and emotional today. I don't know what we are supposed to be doing. Mum has Stage 4 Breast Cancer. 18 months diagnosed. Stable at present. Should I be preparing myself or getting on with normal life? Do we call this terminal? Everyone around just makes me feel like I'm the only one with a problem. I just cannot abide not talking about the Cancer. Then I feel selfish and guilty, it's not my cancer to talk about. My Dad is of the view 'mum's driving and going to meet a friend for coffee, all is just marvellous' whereas my concern is, she's been in the car and unable to control her bowel, if that happens while driving and causes an accident? I'm fed up thoroughly fed up.
