Feel so lonely

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My wonderful husband of 28 years has small cell lung cancer and today I have felt so lonely.

He had been having spells of being tired and chest infections in July. Well at the start of August he had another chest infection which didn't clear despite two courses of antibiotics and steroids. He went to A&E on 5th September as his breathing was getting worse, along with chest pain and losing his voice.

After blood tests and x-ray they said he had a blood clot in his lung so gave him a clot busting injection and tablets. He then had a CT scan the next day and the clot had gone, but unfortunately it showed a tumour in the middle of his chest and a smaller one in his left lung. It is this mass which is pressing on a nerve in his chest which has caused his voice to go and which explains the cough and breathing problems.

After two weeks of back and forth for tests he was diagnosed with advanced stage small cell lung cancer. We got the diagnosis on the 15th September - as you can imagine our world has been turned upside down.

He progressed so quickly to needing a wheelchair, and in the past couple of days no longer wants to go out, he has no appetite, doesn't want to drink and has slept for most of yesterday and today.

I am sat next to him but feel so lonely.  I am so used to us chatting away and sharing things, today I feel broken.

  • Former Member
    Former Member in reply to LonelyPanda

    Hi.  It’s real now.   Saw the specialist today and she told us the worse case prognosis is 6 months but could be more depending on whether more treatments available.   I’ve been burying my head in the sand up to now.   He has a hip biopsy tomorrow which will tell us our destiny.    So scared     Is this really happening.   

  • Former Member
    Former Member in reply to Former Member

    Sending hugs and lots of them..

  • I am heartbroken as only a few days after posting, my beautiful husband died on Monday.

    Rest easy my wonderful man. I am honoured to have known a love like yours and will treasure every memory we made together.

  • Former Member
    Former Member in reply to LonelyPanda

    I am so sorry to hear this my thoughts are with you. 

  • Former Member
    Former Member in reply to LonelyPanda

    So sorry.     You must be devastated.  Sending lots of hugs

  • Former Member
    Former Member in reply to LonelyPanda

    I lost my soulmate on Tuesday morning so i absolutely know how your feeling right now. He was told on Monday  he wouldn't make Christmas,  I didn't realise he wouldn't make the following day xxx

  • Former Member
    Former Member in reply to Former Member

    So sorry to hear that. I lost my husband in April. I hope you are ok. Even though you are there it still shocks you & you feel unprepared. Time to rest yourself now so I hope you have friends & family to support you.

    Take cate x

  • I am sorry to hear you have also lost your soul mate this week. Since Monday when my husband died I really feel so lost. I know he would want to be strong but I don't know how to do that without him by my side.

  • Former Member
    Former Member in reply to LonelyPanda

    You will find the strength from. Somewhere.   Hope you have lots of family and friends to help you through it.     Thinking about you xx 

  • Former Member
    Former Member in reply to Former Member

    I do have a lot of support, but I feel so lonely at the same time. Everyone means well , but none of them have lost their co pilot of life. That's where this support group  comes in, as I know there are people who have  , unfortunately xx