Hi all, I have had a real struggle recently watching my husband in pain and weakening. I know you shouldn't but I've had waves of huge sadness thinking about him no longer being here and I can't bare it. I am trying to enjoy 1 day at a time but sometimes get overcome with impending sadness. I feel dread. I'm hoping this is somewhat normal and would really appreciate any small step advice to not feel like this....
Some lovely words on here.
I, too, am trying to come to terms with my wife's terminal BC diagnosis. The sadness is overwhelming. I nipped out to Morrisons to pick up a few bits and bobs and obviously found myself in amongst people buying their Christmas dinner, booze, last minute presents etc and I had to leave because I could feel myself losing it in the knowledge that this may well be our last one. She is currently in hospital and may not get out for Christmas or have any visitors. She is terrified, as am I, and I can't even be there to hold her hand or give her a hug. We have been together for 35 years and I cannot comprehend life without her. Our adult children are amazing but they are obviously distraught as well. She is the glue in our family and the future without her is unimagineable. How can someone so gentle who likes nothing better than walking our dogs or feeding the birds in the garden deserve this. 
