My Dear wife Ann has been diagnosed with a terminal cancer, this is her fourth lot of cancer two lots of breast cancer 10 years ago successfully treated and renal cancer two years ago.
this has metastisiized and she is 6 weeks into recovery from the removal of the lump caused on her tibia. the surgery went well the wound has healed and she is starting to walk.
i have two daughters who know the score and are helpng out. i am managing all normal stuff reasoably well..
The start of a cancer journey gives you little time to think moving between hospitals impossible parking, mri, xray, bonescans, when the dust settles and you have a treatment plan and have moved the care to a local center of excellence for us the Marsden nr Sutton.
Now without the rush emotioally I am on my knees . i watched my wife reading to our youngest grandchild and it broke my heart to think that soon she would not be here to... I have alwaya had a tendancy to depression but i am falling into hole and paralized by greif .
I need to be able to clear my head to function effectively to make the most of the time we have left together ..
I feel guilty for being so weak,.
