Husbands Lymphoma Relapsed

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Hi Everyone. Im new here. Not sure how to process everything. My husband was diagnosed with Hodgkins Lymphoma in 2017. After ABVD successfully he made it into full remission. Weve just had CT scan results. PET scan tomorrow. Biopsy etc. Basically the CT scan shows its relapsed. The hospital are rushing at 100 miles an hour. Which is great. 
We havent stopped to take it all in. 
Im terrified of the Chemo regimen. Yes I googled the different options. I know I shouldnt. The last 5 years have been awful as after he was in remission he had heart disease  so we had stents in  Then he was diagnosed Type 2 Diabetes  And now this  i work full time luckily for a very caring employer . I just dont know how to digest this  and process it. We just cant believe it. I just dont know w to cope. Plus I havent had a proper cry yet  its like my brain is letting me.  Sorry  I didnt know who to talk to and thought writing here may help. Im so upset hes got to go through this all. Hes my gentle giant and I love him so much x

  • Hi, 

    I am sorry you have found your way here and in the middle of the night everything seems to fall in on us.

    Please know you are talking with people who understand and so all your emotions and fears are perfectly natural. I don't have much to offer you tonight in terms of your husbands illness but I can empathise with how you as the carer are feeling. Know too that you can vent on here and you can let go of the pent up fear you are drowning in right now but tomorrow is another day and you will rise again with your crown back firmly on your head as you walk towards the next part of this journey.

    Please know you are coping better than you think and when we find ourselves in positions like you are facing,  we somehow find the strength and courage to carry on this battle.

    Please come on here anytime but contact your local cancer care support charity for support. Hats off to your boss for understanding and care of you.

    For more specific information, join the chat room that deals with specific cancers so they can support you in your husbands illness and you will get precious help and to help you on this journey.

    Good on you for reaching out to us all,  its a big step acknowledging you need help and talking to strangers.

    Virtual hugs

    Julie 

  • Thank you so so much for these kind words. I had a good cry last night. Today off for a PET scan. 

    Thank goodness for kind people like yourself. Given me some strength for today. Xxxx