Finding things tough

FormerMember
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My husband has been getting the same symptoms as he did before we found out he had esophageal cancer. He finished chemo and of November and the tumour had shrunk 50%. Only a month later he started getting The hiccups and salivating and awful chest pain when eating the evening meal. Since then it's happened four times and on Tuesday it was so bad I had to call NHS 24. I'm wondering how other folks cope when they see their loved one suffer so much. Thanks, Catherine.

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    It’s very hard.  I was being strong for my husband and after a week went to get groceries.  It was my first time away from him and suddenly I was in the middle of the aisle with tears running down my face.  I hadn’t realised I was bottling it up so much.  You will know your husband best, and what reaction of yours is most helpful to him... mine I think mostly wants me to listen and spend time with him.  But he doesn’t want fussing.  Please make sure you take care of yourself.

  • Hi Catherine,

    So sorry to read about your current situation. I feel for you and the pain you experiencing. It is an emotional experience when you see your loved one suffering and you feel helpless. I try do do things I enjoy like gardening, taking the dog for a walk, baking, cooking and reading. You feel obligated to help your significant other that you neglect yourself. Your mental health is just as important as you husbands. Easier said than done but try at least a few times a day to do something for yourself. I wish nothing but positives for your future.

    Take care

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember in reply to FormerMember

    Yes I've seen myself go to bathroom just to cry. Trying to be strong for my family too.

  • FormerMember
    FormerMember in reply to Hatariforce

    I'm going to try getting up before anyone else so I can have me time.

  • I used to cry in the shower, then if my eyes were a little bit red I could say I got shampoo in my eye. Now I just come to look at tears as the love overflowing from my heart and my wife and I support each other. Perhaps sometimes showing a little weakness just goes to show we are human and I think it helped to make us more of a partnership.

    <<hugs>>

    Steve

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  • HI Cath58 I hear you. It's hard. It's beyond hard. My husband's cancer is terminal and like you and the others in this group I'm trying to be strong for him, my kids and I guess everyone else. Over the past few months, I've found that taking a few minutes for "me" helps a lot. Whether its 10 minutes to walk round the block or a couple of hours when I can to go for a longer walk. I'm working full time from home so it's good to get away from the house for a wee bit every day. I'm always first up in here but that first hour or so when the house is quiet is bliss. I;ve been doing some gentle yoga to start my day off. (If that's your thing check out Kassandra on You Tube - something for everyone including some basic meditations) 

    But I too have been know to hide in the loo for a good bubble to myself. That too can be a help. Remember resilient strong people cry too.

    Hang in there

    Wee Me xx

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