Hi everyone, not sure where to start really. My partner was diagnosed with bowel cancer 10 months ago. He has had his radiotherapy & chemotherapy & we were expecting him to have the tumour removed in January. However he went for his pets scan which has shown that not only has the tumour started to grow again but it has also spread to his liver & is currently inoperable. We got this news on Christmas eve & although still she'll shocked i haven't been able to eat, sleep, concentrate or anything. I'm trying to stay strong for him & cry when he's asleep hence the 5am entry. I just don't know what to do next, I don't know how to feel, I don't really know anything at the moment. He is having a pic line put in, I don't really know what this is, on 30th for more chemo. I work in a hospital on a ward that for the second time will become a covid ward, yep i know a perfect storm. The day he was diagnosed the ward became a covid ward & now with this added bomb shell we will become a covid ward again. I don't have patient contact but work closely with all the medical staff. I've e been given a couple of days off work, they have been so understanding. At the moment I don't feel I can go back to work. Sorry I'm going on a bit but its just venting. How am I supposed to feel & does it get easier. Anyway thanks for listening. Take care
Oh LER I'm so sorry. I don't have any words of wisdom here or probably any that can help but know that you're not alone. Feel free to vent and rant as much as you need to. We're all in this together and share your pain. There is no right or wrong way to feel. We just feel and it hurts like hell.
Stay strong. You can do this. Hang in there.
Big hugs
Wee Me xx
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