I'm struggling and feeling guilty about it.
My partner has just been told that there is a very high probability that she has bowel cancer (awaiting histology confirmation). This follows breast cancer, endometrial cancer and a heart attack, all within the last 6 years. Add in the death of both her parents in that time and I'm feeling overwhelmed by it all. But I can't show that at the moment. I've moved back into coping mode (don't think I've ever left it really), writing lists of questions, planning the next few days, moving back into the house we shared together so that she isn't on her own (we live separately). It's complicated and I'm finding it difficult to manage my conflicting emotions.
