Hi all, I'm never used online forums before, this is all new to me. I think I just need a space to get my feelings out. My husband was diagnosed with metastatic melanoma in 2016, he had a tumour removed from his groin followed by radiotherapy. In 2014 he had a biopsy on his toe and was told it was not cancerous, this was incorrect and the cancer spread up his leg to his groin where the tumour developed. As a result of the removal of lymph nodes, he has lymphodema in his right leg. He's then had regular check ups every 3 months and everything was fine until May of this year when a black mark reappeared in his toe. He had surgery to remove all the cancerous cells and has recovered well from the procedure. His last CT scan detected a mark on his pancreas and in August he had a further PET CT scan to investigate further, 4 weeks later he had an endoscopy on his pancreas. We chased up results, but none were forthcoming other than to book in for a blood test for diabetes last week as his blood sugar was a little high. For a week he's been poorly, not eating or sleeping, with pain in his torso, he had the blood test on Wednesday, we also saw the gp who gave him some antacid and cocodemol, thursday he got the results and told he'd developed type 2 diabetes, friday we saw the dr again as he was still suffering and he admitted him to hospital. I've never seen NHS staff move so quickly, we were told his ketone levels were massively above a safe level and he was in a life threatening situation, they had him hooked up to insulin and fluids within half an hour of our arrival and by the morning, he was back at a safe level. A diabetes specialist came to see him and said it was Type 1 diabetes and that his pancreas had just stopped producing insulin. He then went on to apologise for being the one to deliver the news, but that the melanoma had spread to his pancreas and that he was aware he hadn't been told by his consultant, but he felt he was owed all the facts. We're seeing his oncologist on 12th Nov and apparently were going to get all the test results then. We're now trying to come to terms with the melanoma being back and diabetes. My emotions are all over the place, I'm sad, angry and confused, I don't know why they waited so long to tell us. We've got 4 children, 16, 14, 12 years old who I had with a previous partner and a 5 year old who we have together and I'm desperately trying to hold everything together for them. People keep telling me how well I'm coping and I'm amazing and I want to scream at them and tell them I'm not coping. I cry pretty much every time I'm alone, it takes every ounce of strength I have to complete simple tasks like making dinner or sorting washing out. He's still in hospital and due out tomorrow, I can't wait to have him home but I'm terrified of the next steps we have to take.
