Awake and up all night

That's good James, as there's always lots of advice from others there and Dani, the resident community champion, is full of knowledge about all things head and neck.

That tube will really help you, especially to regain the weight you've lost. Don't give up on it just yet. Are you on fortisips or similar? A lot don't like them but OH did, thankfully, as he lost four stones but that was pre surgery. I think I'll get some shuteye soon James, as my eyes are getting bleary xxx

PS James. My night time routine is rubbish - when my eyes get bleary, as just mentioned, and ghost stories on YouTube. I usually get a couple of hours. I'm a lost cause. 

Good night guys xxx

Hi Rie. I know... Just talking to other oerple is such a relief. You always assume it's only you and everyone is dealing with it absolutely fine and do how it's a weakness to feel how you do. It just means you are human and as susceptible to doubt and worry as anyone else. I totally understand when you say u iuve had enough of it all, I feel exactly the same. It's amazing what you can do when you have to and you are stronger than you think. You got this! 

Morning again James  but I hope you managed to get some sleep and are still in the land of nod.

You're spot on with your message to Rie. I doubt any of us, whichever side of the cancer fence we're on, have dealt with this ride without stress, worry or fear and then left in pieces. And indeed, heartily sick of the whole thing. But we are stronger than we think, and have the ability to use that strength to do things we would never have contemplated in our old lives. It's down to our inherent will to survive, surmount obstacles and keep going. I give myself a mental boot up the backside if I start to wobble - and often talk to myself out loud to crack on with it. The latter could be because I'm old, and expected to mutter to myself now.

Anyway James, I hope you have a good weekend and can enjoy whatever you get up to. I don't know which part of the country you're in, but you might need a brolly for your garden walk in the morning. Sending hugs my friend xxx

Morning Gill. I've just woken up actually. Did all my meds about 6.30 and drifted back off. No. Plans this weekend so will enjoy the weather for now. I'm down South, just outside London. Whereabouts in the country are you? 

Morning James  

Good to hear you got some sleep. I live in West Yorkshire and it's raining here, but not much now. You guys in the south usually get away with it, so all good.

If you've nothing planned, just relax and take it easy. OH and me are massively into football, so that's pretty much our viewing sorted for our weekend and beyond. God knows how I'll cope in the closed season - probably spend even more time on here! I got a whole two and a half hours in - a miracle occurred.

Keep smiling and maybe try to eat a little more this weekend - lots of protein to build up muscle loss. And now I'll stop bossing you about! Hugs hon xxx

I need telling what to do so keep it up. I too shall be watching plenty of football today. The Championship finished last week for my team, Charlton, so I don't have a vested interest in any of the games. Mmmm West Yorkshire, would that make you a Leeds fan then?

MOT ALAW   

A Leeds fanatic for almost 55 years. It's in my DNA, but we watch most matches on telly and pick a side we want to win. I don't think I've ever wanted Charlton to lose a game so you're safe!

Hey, if ever you need tips on tasty things to get down, even if the last thing on your mind is eating, far less enjoying it, I've got some. That 4 stone OH lost - it's all piled back on now and his pipe cleaner legs have regained muscle tone and definition. He won't be running any marathons, that's for sure, but he can cover about a mile without getting out of breath now. Small, tottering steps forward.

I've got jobs to do now, so you enjoy your Saturday fella xxx

Gill H said:

A Leeds fanatic for almost 55 years

I have followed the mighty Oldham Athletic for just over 60 years, home and away (with breaks to have family) from the depths of Division 4 to the Premier League, then out of the League to the National League and now back in Sky Bet League 2.

I am blessed as one of my daughters, son in law and one of the grand children have grown up with me and my football and we love the game. 

If English football is on TV you can usually find me in the lounge watching it. (Don't tell Ukiboy he thinks I spend 24 hours a day lurking on this thread!! ).

Best wishes - Brian.

 Once it's in your blood, it stays Brian. Same here, breaks to have children, but unfortunately priced out for a good while due to being skint back then. But I've never wavered either, whatever the ups and downs

Supporting Leeds is heart attack material, as they never make it easy - even now we're not mathematically safe, so we'll see how other results go over the weekend.

Off shopping now, but up the Latics! MOT my friend xxx