Awake and up all night

I know Gill my sleep is up the wall. Good luck at the ENT clinic . Hope everything goes well for your OH.

Where did you get to kez. Sorry we haven't met yet I am new still settling in.

Thanks so much, Sonia. I always get the heebie jeebies before that particular clinic as they're very thorough. That's good but I'm always unnerved that they might find something we don't want. I'll keep myself in check till then xxx

Don't worry Gill you will be fine. It will all be over this time tomorrow. I know how hard these appointments are.i have been to ENT myself saw the consultant she was very direct when giving me the diagnosis I forgot everything she said.

I can well imagine you did forget most of what you were told Sonia, as it's hard enough taking in the diagnosis without all the rest.

It was a bit different for me, as I'd already twigged before OH got anywhere near a hospital, despite my endless nagging at him. Long story short, he was admitted as an emergency and stayed in hospital for the duration of all his pre-op treatment and surgery. Therefore, I never attended a meeting and was told his diagnosis via a phonecall from his oncologist, when I was at home. I remained calm when talking to her, but was cracking up inside to be told what I'd long suspected as it suddenly became real.

Water under the bridge, but every day remains a challenge, especially for him, and that's why I refuse to give up and try to get through each day and not think too far ahead.

It's a tough call, but I hope everyone here can gain strength from each other to get through the dark times. We've got each others' backs in this sweetheart xxx

Aww thank you Gill we will support each other. You did really well considering what you have been through. Give yourself a pat on the back. Remember one day at a time.

Good advice, Sonia. I think we're all stronger than we give ourselves credit for. Onwards and upwards remains the order of the day xxx

Keep smiling Gill your OH wouldn't want to see you sad. He is a survivor and a very man. I wonder where Ray is tonight. He made us laugh last night.

He certainly did and never fails to make us grin. I'm on another, very small, group of dear friends and I often laugh out loud at some of the things they post. OH is used to it now, but he's glad I've made so many lovely friends and is pleased I get respite from all the grind. I'm thankful for having you all to chat with as it certainly takes your mind off the more pressing issues xxx

You are right Gill you need someone at times like these have a laugh and don't feel guilty. I am glad you have got another good group of friends lots of lovely people out there. I am in an group near where I live and I have told pat the lady who runs the group and I was surprised how understanding she was.