Awake and up all night

It is the rule in films that when fleeing, especially from something heinous, or otherworldly, you must go into the cellar ... ir up into the attic. You know it makes sense... NOT!

Ooh does your house have lots of olde worlde character?

Cheers

No, not really as things like the old fireplaces were taken out long before we lived here.

What I did discover were solid wood panelled doors beneath the hardboard I ripped off. That was popular to do in the 60s for some reason. What's still here are ridiculously high ceilings and I dislike them intensely. They're about twice my height and changing light bulbs is a nightmare.

One of my favourite pastimes is to drool over new houses on property sites. I actually fixate on the low ceilings and how just standing on a chair would suffice, instead of dragging heavy stepladders around.

Do you live in a newish house Shims? If yes, wanna do a swap? xxx

Doh! Site playing silly beggars and I am nodding off as was awake most if last night. 

So wishing you all rest if not sleep.

Nyt

My notifications keep saying that Julia has just replied (not just reacted) but no post from her for a while. The site does strange things at night

Goodnight. I hope you feel rested by the morning.  xxx 

I remember the high ceilings in older houses. Now that I'm old, even a 1980s house like mine with lower ceilings is still too hazardous for me to attempt bulb changing. My son is a bit over 6foot so has no difficulty. Fortunately, the new LED bulbs which give off feeble light and do not last as long as advertised, still last a lot longer than the old incandescent bulbs. I don't think I'd cope with the steep staircases in most older houses.

My daughter is visiting briefly tomorrow so I should try to go to bed a bit earlier than usual. She will not have her dear dog with her. He sadly passed away on the 11th August. The vets previously ran blood tests and others but all came back as normal, all organs functioning ok. The poor thing laid down at home, had a seizure and was gone shortly afterwards. A rush to the vets confirmed he had died. We had all become very attached to him. Wonderful character. It was a poignant coincidence that they were given him on the same date 9 years ago as a spritely 5 yearold. I saw him last week. Still quite chirpy but going down with something. The vets did all they could.  RIP Sandy. 

Goodnight Gill if you are still there. xxx

Hi all.

i had not checked in for a while and having caught up on many of the posts I just had to say how much strength and support lives here.

i myself thought i had cracked the sleep thing but after a few days of managing to stay awake till 10pm the. Sleep most of the night, I thought I’ve done it, sadly nope!

I have tried pillow sprays, good diet, exercise and the list of commitment goes on, I conclude the Docs are right, we are all different. I am still determined to eventually get back into a proper rhythm but for now chatting with you all helps massively.

when first diagnosed I did the angry at the world thing, then I looked at my work, the flexibility and many extras provided for me, has been mind blowing, the extras are not financial but they are all acts of kindness, then I have my wife whom I would really struggle without as, she sleeps everything as normal as possible, the the rest of the bunch who I have seen another side too and that makes me super proud.

i guess when I was initially upset and down I looked at all of the kindness and realise I am so very lucky, because I can also come on here and feel the strength and love on show that is impressive.

My bio explains why I would have sometimes seen the worst of people but not sleeping brought me here and again I am grateful for that.

sending my best to you all.

PS if you do have any tips on having a proper nights sleep I’m all ears.

Hello Gunner, that's a good mental attitude to adopt. It will probably evolve still further as you adjust to living with cancer and its treatment. It's hardly a normal normal but we all seem to find our own cancer normal. 

I live alone. Kids have long since flown the nest and I lost my wife in 2007 (RTA). A lack of sleep discipline is now the result. I do try to keep more conventional hours. Tips?? In the current long lasting heatwave very little appears to work, especially when it begins to feel pleasantly cool in the early hours, making me want to enjoy the more comfortable temperatures downstairs. Upstairs still feels like an oven. However, I must now retire to bed otherwise my stamina will expire too quickly tomorrow. 

You are right about the site being supportive, here and in the specific cancer forums. I have frequently been soothed and guided away from bleak thoughts. Many marvellous members throughout the site.

Regards, Ray

Thanks Ray makes loads of sense and yes I think the heat is defo not helping.

Im gonna give that sleep thing a go now also.

Wishing you well amigo.

Morning Gunner and Ray  

Order - do not reply as you both need to sleep.

I've just woken up as my customary 2 hours expired, but just to say how sorry I am about your lass's sweet dog, Ray. A furry little pal is a member of the family too, and a loss is felt with keen heartbreak. I like to think that Sandy will have crossed the bridge and is now restored to full health and having the time of his new life. I know it's daft but we do daft things to get through.

You're a strong guy Gunner, but here's an extra bucket load of strength I've got spare from snatching those 2 hours. It might come in handy for tackling this lousy heatwave that's landed amongst the rest of the tripe.

I'm unsure how the weather affects yourself lad, but that site Shimmer suggested worked on me earlier and I was out like a light. Another one I listen to is Raven Reads, also on YouTube. She narrates ghost and horror stories in an ultra soothing voice and it's like a quick acting knockout drop. All I need to discover now is how to keep the sleep momentum going for more than 2 hours, but without the aid of tablets. Not for me.

Goodnight friends and hopefully you'll both manage a decent rest xxx

Morning Gill.

i was right that this is a great site with great people, as after some reading I then fell asleep.

Gill I will visit those sites and as always thanks so much for your support.

you take care.