Feeling Very Lost....and angry!

So still no plan. They spotted something on my liver (nothing to worry about) they said. So an ultra sound on Friday and more biopsies done at the same time as a mammogram to come (could be two weeks before it even happens). Started Tamoxifen today. Which is giving me the fear. So I ran up a hill and had a cry in the lovely long swishy grass. One day at a time x

How quickly did you know tamoxifen was not going to work for you? X

On other threads I've heard that the brand has a lot to answer for due to the fillers/extras they put in. Make a note of symptoms but try and talk to pharmacist to see what brand they have and could get hold of. I was very apprehensive about tablets (mainly cos I have an issue swallowing tablets) and although the side effects are minimal, I do get swolen ankles, joint pain and the odd day like today of feeling sick/nauseous.it seems others have got worse and there are plenty threads if you search for tamoxifen. As someone else commented, its a shame they don't mention more of the side effects. Most of us are on tablets for 5 years, some for ten. That's a long time.

Keep going ...one day at a time xx

One day at a time indeed my lovely. Hope that swishy grass hugged you a bit too. 

A very close work colleague of mine went through breast cancer 20 years ago. She asked me if I knew what medication I was being given (which is a no as I don't know any treatment plan yet) and said she was on tamoxifen but it made her feel really ill. To the point she refused to take it. However, some of the friends she made whilst on chemo took it and were OK. When she refused to take it anymore they offered her a different brand that suited her better. She was told that tamoxifen is one of the cheapest drugs so they use that the most, but there are others available. I'm not sure how true that statement is, but I'm clinging to the part where if I'm given a drug that makes me poorly, then there could be a different one that suits me better. 

I hate focusing on the negatives and wish I could give you both a big happy healing vibe hug. When shit things are happening, we don't want more bad landing on our laps. Wouldn't it be great if these medicines tasted like a cold g&t and put a spring in our step and a rose to our cheeks.

• Sending lots of love ladies xxxx

I’ve only been taking it for 2 weeks but I have the worst nausea and so exhausted every day. I have tried different anti emetics. Gp gave me 8mg ondansetron sublingual tabs today to try  have apt next week with oncologist to discuss