My husband - Chris - died on the 2nd May 2009 because he had anal cancer. He knew he was going and we spoke about lots and lots of things before he died. That is why I am just not prepared for the huge amount of guilt I feel now. I feel guilty that the world hasn't stopped turning round even though he has died. I feel like everything should stop as a mark of respect. I also feel very guilty that he had to be so ill he had to die. What a cruel cruel thing it is to make someone so ill their body just stops working. I wasn't ready for him to go. I really really hope these are normal feelings because I must hang on to my sanity for the sake of my 3 children. I have never known sadness like I feel right now. I can't believe that I will not hear his voice or feel his touch again. We were married for almost 32 years and I have known Chris for 34 years - since I was 16. What happens now? Ailsa
Morning , Lynne
i got back yesterday after a nightmare journey - the trffic was so heavy i spent most of the 5.5 hours in queues.
what a palaver with the b***h - as you say, the girls are worth more than that to you.. Perhaps if she ends up with the money the girls could ask her for some of it for themselves - that would teach her!! it sounds as though you have the better relationship with the girls, which has to be worth more than the money!!!!
have a good time with them this weekend
sue x
Hi, Fiona
Decorating! How impressed am I! well done, you - you've inspired me to get going, thanks. I've done quite a bit of decorating in my time, so I think I'll have to dust off the paint brushes and move mysef!
i didn't really have a holiday in Cornwall, I went to look after my mother who is recovering from a stroke. I spent the time gardening, cleaning windows, power hosing the path, hoovering, washing, ironing,, taking my mum out with her walker, etc etc - glad to get home for a rest! didn't even get to see the sea!
It's really nice to hear that someone else still knits baby's cardigans. i did the same when my first granddaughter was born and it's very satisfying!
as far as the driving is concerned, it's a matter of having to bite the bullet and just do it. i prefer to go somewhere with which i am familiar but I'm getting braver (well, a bit!)
hope the weather brightens up for you tomorrow
sue x
Hi gang bought you all some rock from Great Yarmouth..
