My husband died in my arms on the 2nd May (2009) - what happens now?

...........and ((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))))))) for you too Sue xxxxxxx

Hi everyone.  This is a slightly calmer me today.  Lots of ((((((((hugs)))))))) for you today Fiona.  I hope you are okay.  And how are you Sue?  Are you feeling any less ill yet?  I hope so.

Welcome to Rosiemay.  I am so sorry you find yourself needing to join us here but you sound very down so I hope that by joining us here you can maybe see from some of our past experiences since we lost our loved ones, that we try to support each other through the bad times so that none of us need to feel alone with our grief.  I hope we hear from you again very soon.

How are you Manda?  All those dates are reaaly difficult to get through but you will do it.  I hope you and H are okay.  I won't be able to make the 14th August meet as it is one of the weekends I am suppose to be going to Becky's old house to do some packing.  As we are both trying to get a few things done with the summer we seem to have planned our time through to the end of October.  As Judi has said - please keep inviting me as I will be along to another one for sure.

Fiona the Relay of Life sounded briliant, especially the silent lap with hte piper.  Patricia it sounds like you had a lovely time at the weekend.  I read all about it even though I was too stressed to post properly at the time.  Thank you for your concern.  You are absolutely right - I must try to slow down.  I had words with Becky about helping a bit more last night and she has emailed me today to say she wants lessons on using my washer and iron this evening (that sounds silly but my iron is a steam generator and she has never used one before!).  Her excuse for not helping sooner was she didn't think I wanted my flow interrupted!!  I've heard some good excuses before but not quite that...!  At least we haven't fallen out and I have every faith in her chipping in more now I have said something.  Kids eh?

Knowing my history for losing posts I will post now and add a little more later.  Take care everyone.  Ailsa xxx

Sorry I ve not been on before but sending big hugs ((((((())))))) to Sue. I can only echo what has already been said. You dont deserve this, you have done such a good job for that school as did Alan xxxxxxxxxxx Definitely their loss!!

Fiona hugs to you too, I often wish my mum and dad were still here. Life is so unfair xx

Ailsa hope you got some sleep last night, saying that I ve been up since 5.30!! Whats that all about?

Well I ve finished for summer, should be cheering so why did I cry all the way home?? Mad or what! Feel bit better now, given myself a good talking to lol!! Got a lot to look forward to, just been told I m being taken to a cottage in the lakes for a few days in August so that will be lovely and I m hoping to book to go to London and see Dirty Dancing with Nat. Also I have got an interview for my job next week!! Not holding my breath but who knows??

Anyway off to my friend s for a coffee tonight then got my baby at the vets in the morning for blood tests. He s on long term medication for a tumour so just checking he s ok on it xxx Bless, my doggie is my baby lol x

Hope everyone is ok tonight, can catch up more with you all now I m off

Lots of love

Helen xxx

Hi, everyone

Thank you all SO  MUCH for all your support over the last few days. i'm sorry to have burdened you all, but I hit an all-time low.

However, , I feel a good deal better now; have at past finished THE JOB; decided today i really had had enough, so just said 'I'm going now' and went. so I'm unemployed. Officially.    Took Alice out for lunch, then I'm going out tonight to the pub quiz. tomorrow I'm off for a bit of retail therapy with alice - then out for a meal tomorrow night with a select bunch of staff from school - people i've known for many, many years.        that'll take care of day 1 - will think beyond that at some point!

lots of love to all my friends - I promise to read everyone's posts very carefully, and answer them properly. 

oh, and i'll stop whinging.

sue xx

(((((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))))))) Fiona x x A difficult week for you. Just remember all us penguins are here waiting to wrap you in our flippers and give you our love and support. x x

Sue, you have not been whinging, just sharing your thoughts, worries, fears, frustrations with a group of friends. Is that not what we are here for??? to support each other. You have given us enough support over the months and now it is your turn.  I hope thwt you manage to enjoy some of the summer without worrying too much about the future.

Ailsa I am pleased to see that Becky is willing to learn how to use modern technology lol. Maybe you could learn how to do an old fashioned thing like resting a little (mmm..... not holding out much hope there).

Dot... are you and Alan doing ok? We seem to be having rather a lot of rain lately... the same thing happened in 2008 and Ray and I became experts in the wildlife which inhabits shrubbery in carparks. We used to go out when we could but often never left the car as it was raining too hard.

Anyway, I hope everyone has as good an evening as they can.

Love and angel hugs x x x Patricia x x x

Oops Helen, I hope you enjoy your trip. x x x

Hi all what a week -- weather so awful washing machine playing up + now I've got a beaut of a cold + then got to get through the weekend when it will be hubbies birthday + I will be missing him so much -- love + hugs to all who are having a down time like me -- oh for a hug from hubby xx

Hi there Macwally, I know it is not quite the same but (((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))))))) anyway. Difficult times for you. It always seems that when one thing goes wrong other things follow. I hope that you manage to get through the weekend and that you start to feel better soon.

Love and angel hugs x x x Patricia x x x

Evening all

Because you've asked - we are both OK just now..........Well as OK as we ever are!!!!!  Life trundles on....I've managed to avoid doing too much work this week......I do want an end to it all - but there's only so much that a body can take before it starts to fall apart.  I think mine starting doing that this morning.........I woke up with the most excruciating pain in my neck (no no no not Alan - this time).  Don't know what I've done (but don't think it was jiving round my study to Queen) - it feels a bit easier now but I daren't turn too quickly to the right!!!!  Hey ho!!

Think there are a few who are in need of ((((((((hugs)))))))))) right now.....Sue, Lynne, Patricia, Helen, Ailsa, Judi, Rosemary, Manda, Gayle, Fiona, Mac and please forgive if I forgotten anyone.............comforting ((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))) for you all

Dot xxxxxxxxxxxxx

Evening everybody and a bighug to macnally and Fiona   too and so sorry its a bad week for you both . Dam these days that are so hard to get through xx Sue i hope your feeling better now , and no way are you wingeing , your always such a massive support to me and others , so dont say your unemployed , along with your lovely daughters we need you too , its just a shame we cant pay you for your "services " . Helen enjoy your holiday and i'm sure the tears we're for the memories of this time last year . Funnily enough i worked on my own today and i spent most of the day in tears , once i drop the patients off and i drive back on my own thats when my mind goes back to last year and the tears flow , any way i'm back with my crew mate tommorow . Patricia , how are you feeling ? are you in work this week . Gayle are you still in Aberdeen ? . Well i've had such a busy week , the paint which Judi and i waited so patiently to dry on sat , had to be painted over again . Once i'd wallpapered it made me the walls look blue and they should have been a pale grey so i've been painting or papering till 10 at night but at least my work is done now . The blind (not litterly) man has been today to measure up for new blinds and my son is going to put me new follor covering down (when he gets time ) he's a self employed carpet fitter and is always busy so i will have to keep pushing him to do mine lol then the kitchen will be done yippeee . Electrics in the next couple of weeks and then i can get someone in to decorate the living room . I'm supposed to be going camping on sat night with a groupl of people who i dont really know (i know 1 of them and she has asked me to go ) its only sat night and my son has lent me all the camping gear , i've had a quick lesson on how to put up the tent but i'm not holding out much hope that it wont go up upside down and inside out lol . I've also been doing my jogging still and i've lost 2 lbs this week so i'm quite pleased . All i can say aswell is , since jogging i have been sleeping a lot better so if nothing else its doing me good for that ..hugs to everyone i havn;t mentiomed xxxxx

Take care

Lynne xxxx