My husband died in my arms on the 2nd May (2009) - what happens now?

Morning everyone

Had a lovely day yesterday, what a great way to spend a sunny Saturday. Thanks again to Manda for organising it xx

Was a bit naughty and went to our local for a couple when I got home so bit delicate this morning lol!!

Ailsa hope you have a lovely day with family and friends, that hole will always be there wont it xxx Bug higs xxx

Lynne how did yesterday go? x

Not sure where I m watching game yet, got jobs to do this morning then will be ready for game.

Have a good Sunday everyone

Helen xxx

Thank you all for the lovely birthday wishes.  It was very lonely, my first birthday alone for 34 years but I did have a lovely dinner with friends last night and today am going on a mystery excursion with another friend so that will keep me busy.  Today is 8 months, so another milestone.

Have a wonderful birthday today Ailsa, I hope it is a good one for you.

Sue, loved the picture, I love roses.

Silly dog has had me up at 5:30 and I was later to bed last night so maybe I will fall asleep in my friend's car today.  I must get him out for a walk before she comes at 9 and hope we can get out before it rains. 

have a good day everyone

love Bren

Morning everyone , Have a good day Ailsa and i'llbe able totell you more about next sat after today , the result of today may just affect the way things happen next week , i'll know soon xx Glad you all had a gooddayyesterday and its made me miss you all more cant waitfor next week and we really have got to have a scott meet and a southern meet too xx Helen hope you get on with your jobs , i have so much to do today but the only thing i can think about is gtetting out to watch the match lol so not sure how much will get done . Yesterday was great , music and sun (and drink ) but it was hard work too . I washed up a million times in the kitchen , did a relief on the burger bar , collected a million glasses in and sold tons of raffle tickets (in between drinking) Its a yearly thing at the pub and i missed it last year obviously cos i was at the hospital with Gordon so it bought back a lot of memories as people kept saying things like "last year wasn't as busy as this " ot isn't the weather better than last year " but i just had to get on with things . I'm still ok and trying to avoid the sledge hammer hitting me .. Hope everybody is enjouying the sunshine xxxxxTake care Lynne xxxx

Hi all

Had a lovely day yesterday thank you very much for  letting  me join you

It was great to meet you Have a good weekend next week at Lynns i expect you will lol

I  cant make it doing the midnight walk the night before

Happy Birthday for Ailsa and belated one for bren

Have a lovely day enjoy the sun xxx

love to you all

take care love janice xxxx

((((((((((((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))))))))))))) to you, Lynne

bring on the southern meet!!!  i know i'm the furthest south west of all, so am being very selfish, but the middle of the country would be good.

Napoleon doesn't travel very well.

Sounds good to me Sue we dont want Napolean ill hun xxx

Hi Lynne glad yesterday went well, thinking of you  this week xxx

Janice lovely to meet you yesterday, glad you made it xx

Sue funnily enough we were talking about a London meet yesterday, need to organise it and come and meet you xxx

Not many jobs getting done here lol!! Now going to my friends to watch the game with her and her kids and then having a bbq!! My 2 are both out so why not!!

Come on England!!!!!

Helen xxx

Hello everyone,

Hope you are all having a nice weekend enjoying the weather.  Hope your day goes well Ailsa and isn´t filled with too many sad memories - Chris will be with you all day Im sure.  Lynne, glad you had a good day yesterday and you are still doing okay.  I´m thinking of you all week and right with you.  The meeting yesterday looked great and I can´t wait to see you all next weekend.  Bren, hope you have a nice day out today.  Rosemary, thats great about the book - always good to have something to focus on.  I hope all the other penguins are all well xxx

I´m shattered lol.  Too old to do two nights in a row.  The kids are back from the caravan but off out playing on their bikes.  I had a stinky hangover yesterday and then was drinking again last night although not too bad today - just very tired!  Just lying on the couch watching footie (come on Germany lol).  Think the rest of the day is going to be very lazy and will probably end with a takeaway as I can´t even be bothered cooking.

Hugs and love to you all.

Gayle xxx

Hi everyone.  Seem to be having a problem going off to bed tonight so thought I would catch up on here.  Thank you all for your birthday wishes.  The footie result made the bbq a bit flat but everyone seemed to enjoy themselves.  BBQs still don't seem right without Chris so maybe need to make somemore changes to how I do them so that we don't feel it so much.  The kids gave me some lovely gifts including a couple of dvds so maybe that will help me sit down for a bit.  Lynne I am glad yesterday went so well although it sounds like it was incredibly busy.  Roll on next Saturday.  Bren I hope the rest of your birthday weekend was fun today.  Take care everyone. Ailsa xxx

Sorry you're having trouble settling Ailsa, isn't it always the case that you cna't settle when you really want to.I hope that the coming days are a little easier for you.

I just had some really sad news this evening.  The little girl who I have been sending letters and gifts to has just died. She was only 3 years old on 6th June. She was to have a stem cell transplant and her parents were taking her on holiday this week but I don't know what happened. They must be absolutely devastated. A beautiful little child who has earned her Angel Wings.  Sorry but I just had to let this out. My heart is aching for this family and I wish there was something to do to help them.

I hope you all have the best day you can tomorrow.

Love angel hugs x x x Patricia x x x