My husband died in my arms on the 2nd May (2009) - what happens now?

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Ah well now, as previously said, Pooh Bear is a favourite of mine .... but I am slightly disturbed by the sight of a 'stretched' Pooh.  I think my ideal would be along the lines of the hedgehogs but penguins.  Loads and loads of them in a line, how wonderful.  Thanks though ... you have got me thinking.

Oh Boy is going to see quite how Rock and Roll I am when he gets home!!! LOL.

Judi x

Judi well done on writing your one card lol

Sue, loving th draught excluder pics.

Great idea 'adopting' a penguin Amanda.

Dot ((((((((big big big hugs))))))))))))) for you and alan. x x x (I am sending you loving and healing thoughts)

Gayle I cannot do the last week of Feb as it is the one year anniversary. I do not however expect you to make your plans around me. March will be out as that is the month my son gets married so I will be vewry busy.  Whatever happens I am sure you will all have a fantastic meeting.

Love and angel hugs x x x Patricia x x x

Evening all , well how late am i? , i've been to watch Beth in her school play (no tears) and then in a mad moment (dont have many of those lol) i went to pc world and bought a netbook , the thought of sitting on a train for 5 and a half hours was to much for me so i thought if i got a little net book i'd sit and play on face book end here . I picked one out and the sales man assured me it was foolproof to set up and assured me i could do it , mmmmm right . I've been playing with it all night and cant get my dongle to install , i'll phone the help line in the morning or take it to my nephew and beg for help . I need it for thurs lol .

Judi , if you think 1 card is enough to keep me of your back your very much mistaken young lady lol . larbert is near Stirling , i thought it was a long way from aBerdeen , What a shame and so close to where you used to live to Gayle , i would have loved the hugs . I'll look forward to feb now , i can make it whenever you go , my diary is empty lol .

Sue did you get your lights fixed ? Hope your feeling a little better Patricia and Amanda , any body else need a little nudge to the middle ? Dotte , hang on in there xxxxx

Anyway just a short one (for me ) i need to play with my little net book , dam the dongle .

Take care

Lynne xxxxxx

Hi everyone

Sorry not been on, busy, busy!! Xmas party at school today and Santa came, also staff Xmas dinner. Very nice too!! Out with friends for xmas meal tonight too. Will have to get back to the gym!!

Gayle February or March is ok with me. Looking forward to meeting everyone.

2 more days then  Xmas hols. My brother and family come next Monday, Liam`s 18th on Tuesday. I have done the embarrassing mum thing and put a baby photo in the local paper.

Was chatting in staffroom today and people talking about xmas routines, family  etc,suddenly got a wave of sadness thinking what if?? But this year needs to be passed and maybe next year will be easier xxx Lets hope so xx

Helen xxx

Hi everyone.  So nice to catch up with you all on here tonight.  I went to my M & Ds for tea last night and it was late when I got home.  I am still incredibly tired so had to go straight to bed.  Bless them - they were showing me holiday videos etc.  The first was my sisters wedding, which you all know I missed.  That was lovely and I want to watch it again as their 2 eldest children who are only 8 & 6 did a reading and I couldn't hear it properly at M & Ds.  Then I had to watch another on German Christmas markets and another on Spanish fountains!!  I nearly dropped off the sofa at one point because I had nodded off - ended up in the kitchen watching through the hatch to try to keep me awake lol!  I love them both really but save me from holiday videos!!

I have broken my own rule tonight - I usually make notes from all your posts - but I haven't done it this time which means I have already forgotten who said what (WB).  I hope you have a lovely meal tonight Helen.  Lynne - you sound run off your feet so take care to look after yourself.  You mentioned that you were going close to Stirling for the funeral - I lived in Stirling for a while as a child and I have lovely memories of it.  I know that won't be the same for you but it still amazes me how small this world is sometimes.  I really hope everything goes as it should for the funeral - I will be thinking about you x.

I have had a dear friend round tonight and while we were chatting I told her about the sky candles plan for Christmas day.  She works with someone whose husband is missing.  I can only begin to imagine the trauma that that is causing for the family but my friend thinks this lady will find comfort in setting a sky candle off when we do.  She is going to talk to her about it tomorrow.  I am hoping that it will make the family feel less alone as well on Christmas day.  I will send a link to the website to her tomorrow.  Thank you once a gain Sue for suggesting this - it has made such a difference to how I feel about Christmas day this year.

I love the idea of adopting a penguin.  I have an urge to find some penguin toys, keyrings etc and keep one close to me at all times.  I think it will help me to feel less alone - even better if it comes with it's own little bit of sparkle.  I am on a mission now!

I need to write some Christmas cards now so I will check in again before I go to bed.  Lots of love to all xxx

Hello all - just a quick post before we leave for disney... feeling a bit emotional about going, but got to give it a go for Hayley. Have just been to the memorial Xmas service at the funeral directors, and I didn't realise it was being taken by the same Reverend who took Miles service for us. It was lovely in a very sad sort of way...

Not sure if I will have chance to check in while we are away, so I'll just say I hope you all have as good a weekend as we can at the moment, and I'll be back next week. Take care all,

Manda xx

Manda, you and Hayley try to have the very best time you can.  I'm glad the service was so lovely this evening - you enjoy your break.  Ailsa xx

Just a quick pop in for me too as I picked up step-daughter No2 from the airport today.  She has come over from Dubai and will be in Aberdeen on and off for the next three weeks. 

Ailsa, snap, I have been seeing penguins everywhere the last couple of days!!  When I sign out of my hotmail account there is one at the side, flipping his flappers ...... or flapping his flippers, I think that the idea of having a wee one close by all the time will be good. 

Manda, go with Hayley and all of us will be there when you step onto Main Street, and your lip begins to quiver a little, we will be giving you a cyber Hig Bug and a wee shove towards the spinning teacups - you can tell that I am not very hard core can't you!!  I like the nice genteel tecups.  Why do I think that Helen and Lynne may well be queuing for the biggest scariest roller-coaster???

Lynne - Mwah (I think that is a big kiss ;-0 ) from me for this week hun.  Dot, you know that we are all there with you and your Action Man.  Helen - just two more sleeps hun!  I know you have a lot happening over the next week - so put those pants on top of your tights again - you can do it Superwoman. Fiona, Gayle, Rosemary, Sue, Quill, Dave, Lesley and everyone else (I am SO sorry if I have left anyone out - I lent my brain cell to Joe tonight cos he had his first bone since the 'op' and seemed to be having trouble as to how to attack it)  - hugs from the frozen north. 

Judi xxx

Manda I am probably too late but have a lovely holiday if you can.

Everyione else. Have a good day if you can. Sorry to be so brief but just a quick visit as I am on the works computer. See you all later (Complete with penguins).

Love and angel hugs x x x Patricia x x x