My husband died in my arms on the 2nd May (2009) - what happens now?

Ah Gayle big hugs back to you , so sorry your in that dark place , please hang on hun, we're all here for you xxxxx

Sue , i dont know , have you got any body you can call on . I'd be useless too if anything like that happens sorry i'm no help xxxx

Hello again.  You are so right about Judi Gayle.  Judi you always manage to say something that pulls us all together for each other.  Thank you.  Lynne I am so sorry to hear your news.  I wish I could help out with your shopping or something.  As Esme said - your loop of sparkly rope is round you so none of us is going to let you fall.  I am sending you lots of strength wrapped up in ((((((((bug higs)))))))) to help get you through the next week.

Gayle I hope you are okay - it is nice to hear from you.  Thanks for the flowers Quill - I think I noticed that we had 2 bunches the same from you and Sue - what a lovely coincidence!

I have only been to Tesco with Stu tonight but we had a MacDonalds on the way and a giggle while we were shopping.  It is so lovely to go to the supermarket with someone again, I so miss company.  That has set off my tears again so I had better go to bed - I've hurt one of my eyes rubbing it because i'm tired.  Take care everyone and thank you all for being here.  Ailsa xx

Sue you are usually so practical.  Have you found your fuse box?  Check none of the switches are down.  Did a bulb blow?

Ailsa

Sue - often when a bulb blows in my house it takes down a section of the house lights.  It is always the fuse and I just open the box and lift the switch back up.  Try that.

have gone to bed in disgust at myself for being so pathetic; am not talking to myself, as i am being very silly.

Ah Sue xxxxxxxxxxx

It doesn;t take much to upset the very fragile equilibrium!!!!!!

one very fed up penguin"

Ah but Sue - the really fed up Pingus get gently ushered right to the middle to be cossetted for a bit ...... have a look around, you will see that Gayle and Lynne are already there.

Helen ..... writing cards, stamps ........ I leave you alone for two minutes and there you are with your pants on on top of your tights looking like Superwoman!

Lynne you are quite right, funerals do tend to take place within four or five days in Scotland.  Where are you travelling to?  If it is anywhere near me I will do my best to come and give you a 'squeeze'. 

Judi xxxx

Dave, so gload you hgave got some of your pressies sorted. Well done.

Lynne, sorry to hear of the sad loss of another family memeber. Will light a candle on Friday in her honour.

Gayle sorry to hear you are in a dark place right now. Let us hope that you soon emerge stronger and happier.

Sue, please don't beat yourself up. You are only human and sometimes it is the little things that tip us over the edge.  Your sparkly rope should keep you safe though and of course the 'motherly ' (yes i did say motherly and not smotherly) hugs from me and everyone else.

Quill, take care hun and welcome to the penguin ledge.

Judi, thank you for your lovely words. Somehow you make me feel comforted and safe. I am just so weepy right now it is unbelieveable but enough about me. I went to visit my friend tyoday. Her mum died recently so I wanted to show her some support. She is not a huggy person but had to endure a hug from me because I felt the need to hug her. She has been a great support to me and I am so sorry that she is now also going through a sad time in her life.

Fiona, thinking of you and wishing you well hunny.

Helen well done with the cards. for the family cards I have put my name with a kiss underneath and then a heart with a kiss underneath as a symbol for Ray. I am niot sure if anyone will realise the symbolism of that. (my daughter did but that does not surprise me at all).

Esme, Dottee, Lesley, Manda I hope you are all ok.

So come on everyone ((((((((((huge penguin huddle and cuddle)))))))))))

Love and angel hugs x x x patricia x x x

Patricia - you are just like me, I also know people that don't really seem to 'do' hugs - however I also just ignore that and hug anyway, because I am absolutely sure that eventually they will reach a deeper understanding realise that hugs are a necessity and should be shared out. 

Quill, plenty of room for you in the huddle, Ailsa is on the case and will have the hot chocolate machine up and running very soon.  Please find me to say hello, you can't miss me,I am the one in black  with a very fetching silver rope around my rather large white tummy!

Lynne, if you don't manage to get everything done in town Patricia pointed me in the direction of Prezziebox.com and I got some super things from there - they were ordered Friday morning and arrived today.  One of my favourites is 'A Jar of Sunshine' and I have already tested it (just to see it was working you understand) and it it lovely.   Dave also took her advice and got Freddie and George sorted out today.

Ailsa and Gayle, thank you for your kind words.  I was laughing as I think my mum would tell you that as quite a young thing I used to watch my brother and sister - talk about combustible - about to fly off the handle with each other and I used to apparently interrupt by saying something completely daft or bursting into song to try to make one or the other of them laugh which hopefully difussed the situation a bit.  Why do you think one lives in Brighton, one in North Wales and me in Aberdeen LOL!!!  No seriously, you guys have been my 'Sunshine in a Jar' these last few months and I would have been lost without you, so thank you.

Was planning an early night so that I could start my masterplan of cards etc tomorrow.  But as it is already tomorrow I will obviously have to put that off until the day after.  Bummer! 

Hig bugs to all.  Judi xxx