My husband - Chris - died on the 2nd May 2009 because he had anal cancer. He knew he was going and we spoke about lots and lots of things before he died. That is why I am just not prepared for the huge amount of guilt I feel now. I feel guilty that the world hasn't stopped turning round even though he has died. I feel like everything should stop as a mark of respect. I also feel very guilty that he had to be so ill he had to die. What a cruel cruel thing it is to make someone so ill their body just stops working. I wasn't ready for him to go. I really really hope these are normal feelings because I must hang on to my sanity for the sake of my 3 children. I have never known sadness like I feel right now. I can't believe that I will not hear his voice or feel his touch again. We were married for almost 32 years and I have known Chris for 34 years - since I was 16. What happens now? Ailsa
IS IT JUST ME AAAAAAAAAAAAAAGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!
SUE FOR HEAVENS SAKE SORT THIS SITE OUT
Kaz xxxxxxxxx
can't find my 'discussion' or 'forum' that i had set up. boo hoo. lost memeorial from w/n too. Seems as though Ray has been erased. love and angel hugs x x Patricia x x
i'm too busy screaming at the damn thing!!!!!
why on earth did they have to mess it around? can't find any private messaging facility, and can't find Dot or quill anywhere!!!!
Think i'll go and eat worms.
aarrgghh It keeps chucking me out. I dont know where my thread is. If you look at the top right hand side of your page your pm messages are there and your profile. Good luck.
Do you do the pictures the same as before?
yes, and i found your thread but i've lost it again
Lynne, I found your 'Going back to work' thread on poage five of 'coping iwth loss' forums
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