My husband - Chris - died on the 2nd May 2009 because he had anal cancer. He knew he was going and we spoke about lots and lots of things before he died. That is why I am just not prepared for the huge amount of guilt I feel now. I feel guilty that the world hasn't stopped turning round even though he has died. I feel like everything should stop as a mark of respect. I also feel very guilty that he had to be so ill he had to die. What a cruel cruel thing it is to make someone so ill their body just stops working. I wasn't ready for him to go. I really really hope these are normal feelings because I must hang on to my sanity for the sake of my 3 children. I have never known sadness like I feel right now. I can't believe that I will not hear his voice or feel his touch again. We were married for almost 32 years and I have known Chris for 34 years - since I was 16. What happens now? Ailsa
Hi team just sending Hugs and kisses cause a couple of you sound down today!!
woe is me!!!!!!!!!!!!
OH Sue are you ok!!! you can keep your chocolate xxxxxxx
just to keep you going, my friend.
thankkkkyouuuuuuuuu emmm kaz xxx
Hi all,
Here's champaqne for the first 1,000 posts and Liam's exam results - well done Liam - and chocolate cake for Sue (to share with us of course!). When will you hear how the poor little kitten is? Ailsa x
