My husband died in my arms on the 2nd May (2009) - what happens now?

Morning Ladies,

Glad your night went well Lynne. And glad you feel a bit more clear about what you want Claire - its good to have an understanding boss and like you say it is all still a huge shock and it will take you a long time to come to terms with it (if you ever do!).

I am feeling pretty blue today. I did expect it as this week was going to be hard and I feel I have taken a couple of steps backwards. I will just need to give myself a good kick up the *****! Jamie had a fantastic day and was so happy so that was good. He is having a big party on Saturday with all his pals at the soft play so he is looking forward to it. I am not too bad about it - the only bit I don't like is the signing happy birthday - I always well up at that anyway.

Good luck with the season ticket Helen. My hubbie was a big football fan so I went down and signed Jamie up for football lessons on a Sunday morning with the local football club. We couldn't often do these things before as I couldn't commit to anything as I didn't know how hubbie would be so I though I had better do it now. The youngest will start in September but Jamie will start on Sunday. I then went and bought him the new Falkirk FC strip to wear so he will be over the moon when he gets home. He went to their Easter camp and loved it. The hospice brought my husband over one of the days to watch him which was a really special day and was in the hospice newsletter that I got just after Wully died which was lovely. I know Wully would have loved the boys going to the stadium.

Anyway, I am away to mope on the couch watching tv before I have to pick the boys up. Wully's family are coming over later with Jamie's birthday presents which is always hard as obviously they are a big reminder of him and I am not close to them. Hope you all have a better day than me.

Gayle xx

Dear gayle
big (((((((((((((((((((hug)))))))))))))))))) for you.
sue x

(((((())))))) for Gayle

I`ve had a few tears today but over good news. Son has passed his AS levels so I am so proud as Paul would have been.Just brings it home more that they`re not here doesn`t it?

Even more so as he took all the exams around Paul`s funeral so he has done soooo well xxxx

Liam got into the game eventually last night so I have e mailed the club to see what is going to happen about the missing ticket.

Hi Claire, you rant all you want xxx

Oh well back to the painting, doing a second coat today!

Helen xxx

Hello everyone, blimey it took me ages to read all the posts and I was only away for a few days. Sorry to read the sad posts and welcome all the new people here.

I had a good time in Cornwall, I went with a positive attitude and it worked, I'm not saying that I didn't get up set but going with a positive attitude helped. I had a brilliant time in Devon and the company was fantastic and the weather was good. I'm off now for a week and 2 days so back to "what can I do" they should ban that saying and if they do say it the kids should be sent to bed !!

Speak to you all later.

Kev xx

hey, helen - fantastic news!!!!
well done, that boy - how proud you must be!

Kev - glad all went well, I didn't get toFalmouth in the end because it was 'Falmouth week' and the place was packed, with lots of roads closed because of carnivals etc, so will go next time.

Sue x

Hi Sue, yeah I know it took me 8 hours to get to the Lizard. Stuck at Stonehenge for 1 hour not moving.

Kev xx

Nightmare traffic! Took me 5 and half hours to get from Redruth to Bristol!

I had a good journey yesterday it took me 3 hours from Devon to Nuneaton and 2 hours from Nuneaton to Romford which is the best I have ever done.

Kev xx

Wise guy, travelling mid-week - i travelled on Frday, which was always going to be a pain, but I didn't have any choice!